Love Is Pain - NADZIRAH.

Finally Ke Starbucks jua ku!

2010-02-01T13:42:00.004+08:00

Chocolate Chip Cream!

macam coffen bean pun! boring!!

oh hello FEBRUARY. MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!

AKU BUKA BLOG KU LAGI!

Haven't Met You Yet!

2010-01-15T08:56:00.003+08:00

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts. I've broken my heart so many times, I stop keeping track. Talk Myself In, I Talk Myself Out. I Get All Worked Up And Then I Let Myself Down.
I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It. I Came Up With A Million Excuses . I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out . You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get. I Just Haven't Met You Yet

I Might Have To Wait. I'll Never Give Up. I Guess It's Half Timing And The Other Half's Luck. Wherever You Are, Whenever It's Right. You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing And Baby, Your Love Is Gonna Change Me And Now I Can See Every Possibility

They Say All's Fair And In Love And War. But I Won't Need To Fight It. We'll Get It Right And We'll Be United

Happy Birthday Orlando Bloom!

2010-01-13T18:56:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Faiz Bakri

2010-01-11T17:08:00.002+08:00

May Allah Bless You Always, Panjang Umur and Happy with your beloved one!

One month to my Birthday :)))

Many Have Called but The Chosen is You, KA!

2010-01-07T19:41:00.005+08:00

Don't know much about your life, don't know much about your world, but don't want to be alone tonight, on this planet they call earth. You don't know about my past and I don't have a future figured out and maybe this is going too fast and maybe it's not meant to last

But what do you say to taking chances, what do you say to jumping off the edge? Never knowing if there's solid ground below or hand to hold, or hell to pay. What do you say?

I just want to start again and maybe you could show me how to try and maybe you could take me in somewhere underneath your skin

And I had my heart beaten down But I always come back for more. There's nothing like love to pull you up. When you're laying down on the floor there. So talk to me, talk to me, like lovers do. Walk with me, walk with me like lovers do

eventhough I might be mean and cold towards you, I always love you and eventhough you will never gonna love me, but I'll will keep waiting, I don't care. Because I really care and love you.....everyday! I just want you to be happy :) and I LOVE to see your smile and I'm missing it! I'll wait til the A level is over!
KA, you are the sweetest guy I've ever met eventhough I don't know you that much. But I know you are the nicer guy too. Forgive me if I've done something bad to you that really upsetting you or hurt your feelings! just remember, ~~I LOVE YOU KA!~~

History, Geography, Bahasa Melayu & General Paper

2010-01-05T19:39:00.002+08:00

First day of school was not suck at all, in fact it was the best day ever in my life and also the happiest! I never thought that I'm gonna be so that happy! It nice to meet my friends, him and everyone at school. But I also did something regretful. I'm sorry to him for making the "you-broke-my-heart" face! I didn't mean it. and now he was so upset with me. I can feel it. My friends too. Sorry! I'll try to smile next time, well I did but there is 2 friends of yours there and I just don't want they know about hmmm...nevermind!

hey everyone, Welcome Back To School! and I'm a senior? hmmm...

When You See My Face, I'm Gonna Give You Hell!

2010-01-01T23:27:00.004+08:00

School will be on Monday! I'm completely ready because I'm freaking bored at home. and of course it's new year damn! I LOVE IT. so let's recall what happened in 2009!

I'm a Lower Sixth Students, I got 6 'o' plus English on June so altogether 7 'o'
I Fell in Love with three guys...sucks!
I'll become USU! my 1st Niece, Sumayyah!
I'm no longer History Champion! HAHAHA!
New Friends....Lot's of them and I'll become closer to my guy friends ;D
Love Letter Guy....I'm not sure who is HE!
I learnt how to use Washing Machine!
I read 10 books!

I think that's all that I can remember!

Kiss Me Goodbye

2009-12-31T21:23:00.002+08:00

Something has changed within me, Something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second-guessing, Too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust my instincts, Close my eyes and leap!

I'm through accepting limits cause someone says they're so. Some things I cannot change, But till I try, I'll never know! Too long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost. Well, if that's love It comes at much too high a cost!

Happy New Year. Goodbye Bad Memories!

Sherlock Holmes & Alvin and the Chipmunks

2009-12-28T21:47:00.006+08:00

So where I've been missing? let's see, I spent 3 days, 2 night (Friday -Sunday) at Centrepoint again and we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks. Chipettes was super cute and the movie were two thumps up! I swear I won't eat Prosperity Burger from McDonalds again, Pedas!

Then continue to Rizqun Hotel (Sunday-Monday). I just got back from Bandar. Most of the time I spent at the Mall, Karoake with Cousin again. FYI, don't choose Shakira song - Hips Don't Lie, No lyrics! HAHAHA! kami nyanyi antam antam sja xP. On Monday which is today, watched Sherlock Holmes with Nurul, last minute planned. I Love Jude Law and the Movie is 10/10! Thanks to my Mum for the Breakfast treat at Rizqun Coffee House. I love it's Mashed Potato!

Hello Facebook

2009-12-24T22:05:00.003+08:00

I made a new Facebook. try not to be active like before and less updating status, hey I love Twitter!

Three Korean Freak, One Hollywood Freak!

2009-12-23T20:35:00.008+08:00

I LOVE YOU GIRLS.

It was the happiest day of my life and the best day ever. We were at Normah Crib's!

Thanks to Fathin Mazziyah for the bracelet

Thanks to Normah for the spagetti, she made it, we help her oh wait aku duduk2 jua sja hehe. Fathin & Fizah did help her ;)

Thanks to Fizah Hashim for the ride!

We had fun, we walked to the minimart, we watched the last part of Another Cinderella Story, Momok (not even half of the movie) and Syurga Cinta. Fathin & Fizah are so in love with Awal Ashari! Fathin, remember this, CHEESE~~ HAHAHA! then lastly we had our photography session.

This gonna be a long post with full of pictures. So enjoy girls!

Pictures were taken by itself, Me, Fizah, Normah and Fathin :)

3 Days, 2 Nights

2009-12-22T12:00:00.007+08:00

Centrepoint Hotel is all new except for it's toilets and it's mini-kitchen. We spent for 3 days. Also joining us are my Angah from Kampung and My cousin, Nurul! Our favourite spot is The Mall! I didn't watch movies though and I'm kinda frustrated. No one wants to watch movies with me. Poor me. Everyone seems to be "KAPIH" HAHAHAHA!

We did karoake at Uni Arcade. We sang Hijau Daun Song, Insomnia by Craig David, Love Story by Taylor Swift, Hot&Cold by Katy Perry, Dafi&Gita Gutawa song and Take a bow! woah that's a lots and we kinda lost our voice. Then on Sunday Night, We hit coffee bean from 9 to 11. The place were crowded. People watching football.

On Sunday, I took the free breakfast at Season's with my Brother. I'm so full! There is Omelette, baked beans, Hash potato, Sausage roll and etc! simply delicious. While I stayed there, honestly, I don't get any sleep which later, I had this massive headache. I saw Farhanah Isnin with her boyfriend ;) and I watched Wanted before I go to sleep with family which is aired on HBO or Star movies, I don't remember! Wanted, another stupid movies just like Ninja Assasin! I watched it till the end because I want to watch Angelina Jolie dies.

Nurul know how to make Butter Milk Fish! Nyaman, thanks!
Did I mention that night Manchester United lost to Fulham? 3-0 man! sucks!

R.I.P Brittany Murphy

2009-12-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

Single Ladies By Glee Cast

2009-12-17T16:00:00.006+08:00

I guess I'm just so damn bored this afternoon!

Can't Let Go Cause It's Too Strong

2009-12-16T10:15:00.000+08:00

He said, he was not available right now because he need to focus on his studies. it was understandable & acceptable! really, i know he want to be the best right eventhough it was hard for me to accept it at first. but if he is the love letter guy, it was so sweet because he wiling to sacrifice his feelings for his studies. don't you think so?
but if not maybe his words could mean, "you are ugly and i don't like you" and that's only an excuse! right? yeah! as i promised to my friend, no more crushes and no more boys next year!
Only History, Geography, Bahasa Melayu and my friends! i can't wait for 2009 to be over and gone.
But when this things happens, He made me think about it and because of it, it changed me to be more better person. for example, because of him, I love to read books! Because of him, I'm revising during this holiday because I totally want to beat him hehe ;) Before this, I love wasting my time on Facebook and MSN and Loves to study at the last minute. but now I don't do those again....just because of him. I felt great and it changed me completely. He made me realised it before it too late. Thank you so much!

If only YOU know HOW MUCH I MISS YOU......only GOD knows!

If only YOU know that you always on my mind 24/7!

If only YOU know i was hoping that you could change your mind and say you want me too!

but no matter what, I'll be waiting for you. I know if you are the Mr.Right, you will come back to me. I believe that. I'll will be positive all the time! who knows right!

I stay up til you're next to me

2009-12-15T09:02:00.000+08:00

Bandar Bandar Bandar, almost everyday I go there! Crazy and I'm tired! but most of it, I spent at my cousin house. I managed to avoid eating rice, yeay! I found Unification Of Italy at Booker which costs $28! I don't know where my Italy notes are. Missing & Incomplete! My mum promised to buy me one and also Geography! Fantastic. I also attending wedding reception at Asma Hotel...at night! It's so romantic and i feel like want to get married now! but hmmm... I think I have to wait for another 10 years! HAHAHA! and I think I want to go to Pasar Malam again! the BBQ was.....superly delicious

I'll be gone again for three days. starting on Friday! don't worry I won't go far, just somewhere at Brunei and Coffee Bean! You know where to find me. HAHAHA! and I'm missing you too, my friends! It was nice to know that my friends are missing me. one of my friends wondering where I've been gone since now, aku jarang online sudah :))

French History!

2009-12-06T15:03:00.003+08:00

The King Was Impotent,

The Queen Promiscuous,

the Aristocracy perverted.

Wish That I Could Move On

2009-12-05T14:47:00.000+08:00

Everything You Had To Say

Sent The Tears Right Down My Face

Now I'm Trying To Escape

The Misery

Why Don't You Love Me

The Way I Loved You

New Boooo~!

2009-12-03T22:33:00.003+08:00

BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG DISAPPOINTMENT!

1. it's not what i expected

2. since i read the book, maybe that's why the movie suck. it's a mess.

3. too much talking than action

4. Bella was being stupid, yes she is. just because of Edward!

5. Actors make-up was.....disaster.

6. the opening was hmmm...ANTAH eh!

7. the ending is NOT THE ENDING! faham! the ending in book are different! Bella was been scolded by his father but in the movie... you watch it by yourself!

8. the only interesting part is.....THE VOLTURI

9. i hate Jacob Black, Edward Cullen, && Bella! i hate semua nah!

10. so, i don't know what will happen in ECLIPSE!

maybe for those who haven't read the book, this movie could be awesome. so, please don't read it! HAHAHA! banar tah. so really really sorry to Twilight Die HARD fan! SORRY!

DECEMBER!

2009-12-01T13:39:00.005+08:00

my new twitter background. CUTE!

so, it's december, well do my revision ;)

hope so!

I Just Want To Be Happy!

2009-11-30T21:02:00.005+08:00

i've come to realise that i'm not ready yet. i'm not ready to face what might come next! the sentence seems wrong but nevermind.

I was having fun today with some of my friends (Azka, Icky, Majidah & Fizah Hashim) chilling at my cribs, and sorry also to my other friends because i didn't invited you guys. maybe next time. i gotta be honest, i do felt happy when they came but a little bit upset jua lah. maybe because of the time or the way we organised it was a mess?! hmmmm... not only that, i kept changing the time. suppose to be after lunch but got some business in town and the so called party started at 3.30! we played UNO, Scrabble, Jingga, Cluedo, Headbands && Nazurah Keyboard. overall, it was a blast and i want it again. maybe next 2 weeks! i can't wait.

the ONLY picture i managed to capture hehe. THEY ARE SO ANNOYING. BANAR. MERUSAKKAN LAGU SAJA. AND DRG MAIN ANTAM-ANTAM UNTIL ME & FIZAH ALMOST COMMIT A SUICIDE! LOL!

oh Fizah Hashim, I am truly sorry for not inviting you the other day. i still felt guilty. i know i'm more to Maijdah! really, i thought you were at Sengkarai and aku inda mau menyusahkan kau jauh jauh keBukit Beruang! hmmm......

Sumayyah, My Niece.

2009-11-29T15:54:00.004+08:00

btw she is 8 months old

her birthday, 14.march.2009

Gauk berabisan! HAHA! kambang wooooo~ :P

I Miss You So Much!

2009-11-28T13:46:00.001+08:00

Although you may not love me, although you may not care. If you shall ever need me, you know that I'll be there. Your love may all be taken, your heart may not be free, but when your heart is broken, you can always lean on me. I'll never stop loving you, I know because I tried. All the oceans in the world, can't hold the tears I've cried.
-- Author Unknown

Ninja Assasin

2009-11-26T10:28:00.002+08:00

Thanks to Afifi Roslan for the tickets && Popcorn.

and thanks to Zulfa pasal jadi "DATE" ku! HAHA! :P

okay, i rate this movie hmmm...7/10!

it's cool but too much blood!

i like how they were fighting but i don't like how they killed their enemies.

and also the sound of sword is so creepy!

and Rain was on this movies. Aku baru sedar! HAHA!

Aku Belum Move On! xP

2009-11-25T09:49:00.002+08:00

Zulfa was here, in my house just now. she was in my house from 3 to 6! She really "annoyed" me with "aku tau kau suka aku kan" she kept saying it over and over HAHAHA! gay tah ku ne karang. I was hoping Majidah could come but she said nada transport :( well it's okay then, next time saja.
it's true when Zulfa said, "don't always trust your instinct"! I always listened to my heart and trust my instinct! and looked what it had done to me, I get hurt over and over again and I made the same mistakes over and over again. next time, I should think carefully! and and, maybe there is NO LOVE LETTER GUY! what if someone just trying to punk me?! HAHA! why i never think of that before? I liked when Zulfa said that Aku Crazy because I always do something unexpected :P

so, i decide to deactivate my facebook....again! i need to fully move on and i know Zulfa want me to move on. Iakan iakan?! HAHA! bah move on ku ne.

so, new moon on 26th huh? HAHA! honestly, i thought it was on 3rd. a little bit frustrated, okay BIG BIT! nevermind, i'll be watching Ninja Assasin at the empire tomorrow with Nazurah and her partner while me and Zulfa! hmm.... i hope that movie will be awesome than New Moon! BETTER BE!!

Morning Talks :))

2009-11-24T10:53:00.005+08:00

oh boy, did you know what you had done to me?

you destroy me! you break me!

hey, i've got new obsession other than boys......B-O-O-K-S! and I really really desperately need more books. my mum promised to buy one for me. HEHE. and oh, i finished reading eclipse! sorry to say, i'm not even big fan of Edward or Jacob. i'm more to EMMETT!

BTW, i'm already started my holiday. i don't want to go to school anymore till next year and i just found that my future course in universities will be called Humanities since i'll be choosing History as Major Course! okay, maybe History && Geography.

And here is the list of movies that i want to watch during this holiday

- Christmast Carol

- New moon

- Zombieland

- Avatar

- Sherlock Holmes

so, anyone want to watch these with me? xP

End of Year Examination Results

2009-11-23T10:37:00.005+08:00

B - History

C - Geography

C - Malay

U - General Paper :)))

and yes everyone, i'm moved on! MOVED ON!

i can't wait for 2010!

New life! WoooHoooooo

i'm officially Upper sixth Student!

i'm tweet & plurk addict ;D

Forum Kesedaran Kanser Serviks

2009-11-14T17:13:00.004+08:00

Serious Grammar Error

2009-11-10T18:08:00.004+08:00

i am! HAHAHA! really serious. i'm still suck in english though! banar tah. but never mind. belajar lah. i failed my GP paper, and passed my geography! yeay congratulations!

since end of year examination is over, school is kinda bored and i hate the situations around me. it's suck. i'm not interested in joining any school activites since i'm bad at those things. seriously, scrabble? chees? NETBALL? HAHA! i'm total LOSER! staying at home is a very bad idea, so just come to school everyday and have fun with my friends. at least they can cheer me up than 24 hours at my lappy besides holiday is coming (1 MONTH!!) so i'm gonna miss my friends and someone :)

gosh, i have a blast with Zulfa last night! HAHA! we shares everything, EVERYTHING! aww~ thanks Zulfa for coming. and sorry ah 2012 && Phobia is not my type! haha, they are the shittest movies ever! (banarnya aku takut :P)

UNO.

2009-11-03T14:10:00.005+08:00

It's F R E E D O M

2009-11-02T17:48:00.004+08:00

End year examination is over. I celebrate it with chocolate and 24 hours at my Lappy! cool right, since Nazurah still having her examination unti this thursday kali. so, in the meantime, i'll be in charge. HAHA! boo~

so, TV time wooo~ gossip girl, heroes, 1o things i hate about you, glee, melrose place and not forgetting , Vampire Diaries! too much eh? haha. now which one should i watch first?! GOSH.

well, speaking about my examination. it's quite okay. i find that all the paper are EASY if you revising at the beginning. since i'll do it at the last minute so, just okay. i love geography paper, thanks Tcr, that was the first time i managed to answer all the questions! mind to all readers, i never passed my geography. History paper ALMOST a disaster because of source base. damn, i should read sample essay that sir gave us. it's all there with the answer too. General paper was errr..no comment. i think i keep repeating the facts. i should choose about fiction instead of career. both bahasa melayu paper was just fine. i'll be losing 10 marks in paper 2. damn Hang Tuah.

and it's kinda dissappointing when New Moon will be on December not November. Just like Twilight last year and yes, i'm gonna watch the first shows just like last year. gosh, i still remember on that day that i woke up on monday morning and called cineplex if there already have a schedule on Twilight and they did. So, i booked for three tickets immediately on the first show woo~ i'm the first one. too obsessed! HAHA. just because of Twilight!

To Zulfa, aku abis exam dh. bah come to my house. i miss you. and credit ku expired. malas ku beli, bazir xP

Thanks :)

2009-10-25T17:55:00.000+08:00

watched it with Fathin Nabillah & Nazurah. Well, i'm really hoping Zulfa could join us because i'm missing her! Zulfa, next time ah? pakai sja tia uniform biru mu atu! ;P

and thanks to Fathin because treat us with popcorn & drinks :)

End of year Examination :)

2009-10-23T10:50:00.002+08:00

26/10/2009 - General Paper
27/10/2009 - Bahasa Melayu 1
28/10/2009- History
31/10/2009 - Geography
02/11/2009 - Bahasa Melayu 2

aku habis awal. wooo~

HARI RAYA PICTURES ( I KNOW HARI RAYA IS OVER ALREADY)

2009-10-18T13:25:00.009+08:00

when they came to my house. love you guys ;DD

this is my confession :)

2009-10-16T12:49:00.003+08:00

i don't even know who is in my heart now. and it's time for me to just let it happen and stop talking or thinking about it.

i downloaded ALMOST glee soundtrack. The one i loved the most is Alone. and i only watched one episode of glee, the rest will be after exam. i studied at the last minutes and it's my fault.

tomorrow, will be my turn to present about insurance! i have no idea about it. damn!

Holiday Lodge!

2009-10-11T22:07:00.000+08:00

The foods two thumbs up! eventhough it's very expensive. more than $5 is expensive. My favourite, black pepper and ice lemon tea! the yummiest - butter prawn.

Readers heavens, the books are not so much compared to Best eastern. i prefer best eastern. wanted to buy a books but i haven't finished reading eclispe yet! have to wait after this end year exam which will start on 26 october. wish me luck guys. i'm scared!

i also want to wish my friends and my seniors for their upcoming exam. whether, 'O', 'AS' and 'A'
Goodluck guys! do your best and have fun a little. don't just read all the time :) take a break.

Twitter :))

2009-10-06T16:33:00.001+08:00

i love tweet alot! at school and at home. it's fun wah. i like to express my feelings there sometimes or let the whole world knows what the hell i'm doing now, plurk is the same too except that i don't know how to plurk using mobile phones.. other than twitter & plurk, facebook, another drugs of my life other than love. oh yeah i deleted my friendster account. it's suck dude.
Facebook are so addicted. i made it early of this year but i don't love to comments alots. just update my status, play some games or anwers some quizzes. just to kill my boredom. i always get bored.

hey guys, already watched miley cyrus new videos - party in the USA? it's hot and i love how miley dance. just go to youtube. too lazy to post it here okay. and Justin Bieber is super duper hot kids. Amazing kids. also go to youtube to watch his video - one time.

guess what, i done something for the frist time in my life, GOSH! if i write it here, both of us - my friends name & ME will get busted! haha. to those who knows, keep it secret yaw! shhhh~ just this time. one time. next time, no more ;D

went to majidah crib's. again - doing geography projects in last last MINUTE's!!

My favourite tv shows

2009-10-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

i've got vampire diaries, glee && melrose place

season one - 1 -4 :)

watching online - gossip girl - season 3 && Heroes season 4 :))

i'm just like you!

2009-10-04T20:55:00.003+08:00

My friends always said, "eh kau GP students jua", guys you put ALOT of pressure to me. doesn't mean i'm a GP students now, i'm better than all of you. NO! You guys are much more better than me. so just stop saying those things to me because you make me so stressful. I think you guys should be grateful okay. GP is like HELL! trust me. there should be no mistakes in grammar and i'm not good in it. just consider yourself lucky for still studying in english okay! at least you guys can still write a story telling, GP NO! so just imagine what will happened to me next! i'm so doooooomeeeed... :))

i've been through a lots since last months. get rejected? i'm not sure. he say nothing. i'm just keep it cool now. pretend nothing happend, so do him. we are okay, i guess so. i hope miracles could happen to me in anytime soon, so that i could lived happily ever after! fairy tale much huh?! that's why i hate some of disney movies e.g snow white or beauty and the beast! haha! i'm jealous wah.

and also i was having fun with my mates this morning. with icky, majidah and fizah in my house. we actually planned to do our geography project but i was so stress out with our topics - settlement! and icky got a very brilliant idea, thanks to him, four of us were watching movies in his laptop! 2 movies! none of our slides in actually complete haha. except icky.

at night, my former classmate came to our house - beraya. who else, my baby - Zulfa, Faiz Azmi, Mustaqim, Hafiz Subli, Rusydi and Qirah with her Najib. we had fun and lot's of stories to tell! guys, pictures will be uploaded soon. Wait okay :)) thanks for coming and thanks for willing to wait for us to come home.

Don't trust people too easily, Nadzirah

2009-10-01T18:17:00.001+08:00

When the person you trust the most is the one who tell your secret to the whole world!

thanks alot missy, making me famous again.

I'm dying in my bedroom

2009-09-30T18:45:00.004+08:00

LAST NIGHT, BLACKOUT, 7 hours!

i'm sweating & hot!!

i'm a GP students

2009-09-28T19:37:00.006+08:00

Welcome back to school!

good news, today will be the last day i'll stayed in english class. tomorrow, i will be officially a GP students. want it or not, we have to :))

i'm happy because my block doesn't change at all. and my first day of school was not suck and not as i expected. more to laughter than sadness. i'm not over him just try to be cool around him. and i sick of people keep telling me it's my fault! the problems is that they are not me. and they can't be me eventhough they always said if i were you, i will blablabla! okay i know i'm too rush and can't control myself but at least tell me something that could make me feel okay, not guilty and regret. i know it's big mistakes for me and a major turn off for him. being so pushy and obsessed with him. i know all that! everyday, i woke up every morning, i wish he never knows and i could still talked to him again. now everything is changing. but i'm glad he know and i'm glad everything is seems pretty normal again except i don't talked to him again and i feel like a stupid when he was around me. well, at least i'm being myself not someone else.

Surprised!

2009-09-27T11:57:00.001+08:00

Yesterday

gosh, i am so freaking surprised. really. i was shaking and i can't stop smiling.

Diju&Habibah and the rest of Muda Hashim Dude's are really surprising us! they attacking our house! gosh. i don't expect it there will be Syazwan and the other's! thanks guys. it's was a blast! really. not only that, i was raya-ing along with azka and icky. woah! thanks for the ride guys. i can't believe it. it's like a dreams. should i slap my face now? or should i just enjoy those memories?

pictures are with Fathin Nabillah. will post it soon.

Teacher's Day!

2009-09-23T14:57:00.001+08:00

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY TO MY TEACHERS :D and oh yeah to my mum too :))

Selamat Hari Raya

2009-09-20T19:20:00.000+08:00

i'm here just want to say SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!

I am sorry for all my my mistakes to everyone. i know i am not a very good person and i know there is words that might offended all of you. for my bad behaviour also :) enjoy this hari raya! and oh yeah, my house please ;D

New Haircut :D

2009-09-19T12:44:00.002+08:00

can you see it? XP

I spent almost $100, just for my hari raya :D

2009-09-18T18:47:00.000+08:00

just imagine that! i'm a big spender and i hate it. REALLY HATE IT!

i went to bandar yesterday with my family :D

Last Minute Plan

2009-09-15T12:21:00.000+08:00

it's the best day ever yet. sungkai luar with my PS mate which is only 6 of us. 2 girls and 4 boys. it's was a blast. Met my former classmate and former 5A1 (2008) students and my baby was there too, Zulfa. thanks everyone for making my day such memorable. i just couldn't believe that i was screaming at Central Mall when seeing Zulfa. and thanks to Hafiz Subli for taking our picture :) Sorry guys, had to go home early

And also sorry to my girls for canceling our sungkai luar! there is something more important for me to do. sorry girls. Next time okay.

LOVE YA XOXO

Happy Birthday To My Former English Teacher (2007-2008) , Teacher Norsah!

It's Holiday Everyone :D

2009-09-12T14:35:00.001+08:00

okay, aku cuti awal! i got no mood to go to school today. Really, i'm tired and i'm lazy. if i go to school, what did i get? nothing! HAHA! no lesson today. no point i go to school anyway. So, i just stay at home and do all the homeworks! not school homeworks! i woke up early today and i was shocked to find something haha! really shocked. but nevermind. i'ts not important anyway!

but hey, i lost 5 kg!! i'm proud of it! :D
i can't wait to wear my baju raya (which is still at kadai)
already planned a sungkai luar with my girls which will be this 17th! i can't wait to see them.
so, everyone, we will wear tudung haha! ALIM.

Mixed Emotion!

2009-09-09T16:50:00.003+08:00

oh gosh! i was having my emotional breakdown during PS! Luckily, only my girls know why and also luckily, there is no boys inside! Fizah said, i cried over something sekadar but for me its not. Because of that, i don't talk or smile with people around me. all day long! some of my friends did ask me why but i said i'm okay! btw, thanks to all of my friends. they try to comfort me and cheer me up! such a bad day huh! i was expecting something more special today since it's 09092009 dude! nice date in universe!

Well, still having my *bendera merah naik* HAHA! i can skipping tadarus, sahur and i can stay late night! whoooooooooohooooooooo! but it make me MORE sensitive. okay my day did start with laughter especially with Zuriani! gosh, i just can't stop laughing when i with her. ada ada saja anak ah! we like to tease si blushing or si pemental, Majidah! HAHA! eh, majidah, i LOVE you kali ah.

i want to change my blog layout but i'm lazy to do so. i think my current layout is cool bh. so i just change my playlist and my profile. i was thinking also to change my cBOX! so, 2 weeks left for hari raya. so excited. and good news for me, i might be entering GP block after this Raya holiday! EXCITED!!!! hoping that i will stay at where i was now! cross fingers Nadzirah!
oh yeah, Finally Michael Jackson was laid to rest and so do DJ AM!

You say aku seperti Barbie
You look so pretty menarik hati
You say aku layaknya peri
Tebarkan cinta di atas bumi

Cinta Laura - You Say Aku

:D

2009-09-07T22:55:00.001+08:00

Selamat Menyambut Nuzul Al-Quran :)

i break my fast because of some unavoidable reason and NO, its not even because of PMS!

and I MISS YOU!

i'm gonna be a maid starting today

2009-09-06T20:28:00.000+08:00

My maid has gone home to Philippines today. i didn't sleep after sahur as we are going to Muara Terminal. too bad we are actually late and she had to buy another ticket. guess who was there? my amit! after that, went to Amit house to have some rest and kacau si nurul and kaka umi yang masih tidur. then, we then head to MALL! gosh, finally. Atu pun sekajap since i got this massive headache! i just bought shoes. very beautiful and its higgggggggghhhhhhhh HEELS! HAHA! hey, Raya is coming. will be shopped another times. and will cut my hair soooooon! i don't what hairstyle suits me well. this year i want short hairstyle! i was thinking BOB but i think it does not look good on me but will ask the hairstyler.

so, everyone, starting today, it will be the busiest and most tiring weeks or should i said 3 months?!
hoping that aku inda berapa merungut! come on guys, aku ada orang gaji since i was a little! HAHA!

Happy Birthday Zulfa Hazirah :)

2009-09-04T09:40:00.002+08:00

Love and Miss YOU

and also Happy Birthday to my former PS&Geo Mate, Azizi!

Have a blast everyone :D

nothing last forever

2009-08-29T23:10:00.005+08:00

shocking news everyone. hottie, DJ AM has passed away! i was shocked when i found out about it. REALLY SHOCKED! He is lucky before for surviving plane crash and now he's dead?! hard to believe but it was. Rest in Peace DJ AM! :(
another news? YES! Michael Jackson Case is officially Homicide! means? he was murder!! it's hollywood babe, anything can happen!

Yesterday, i went to giant and i bought this little black dress book (check at my website links before my cbox)

Title - right before your eyes
Author - Ellen Shanman

i found out that little black dress book is a very fun books to read. it's has different stories each books and that's interesting! also yesterday i breakfasting with LEKOR and no water! HAHA! okay, it's late already and we still at Giant and i forgot to buy water! i just bought LEKOR!

Okay about today, i was absence since thursday. i got my own reasons! HAHA! went to the clinic and gosh, i waited for almost 3 hours for my turn and only takes few minutes to check me??!! and she give me only one day MC! damn, i was hoping more than that. i was FINE and she said, "your lungs is okay" then there is a nurse asking me,

Nurse: dimana sekolah?
Me: ......
Nurse: sekulah?
Me: .....
Doctor : where do you school?
Me: ah, SMSO
Doctor : HAHA, she was thinking! what are you thinking about? boyfriend?
Me: ........

seriously, aku inda dangar! HAHA! palau.

Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Air mata yang tertahan
Waktu untuk di jatuhkan

Siti Nurhaliza - Melawan Kesepian

I did it with no regret at all ;D

2009-08-27T12:50:00.003+08:00

Lot's of tears i wasted these days. seems like the story is still the same and the ending is uncertain. i don't know what will happen next but the only thing that i know is i did a very bravest thing again! first of all, thanks to my friends who is really support me and never blame me for this and to those who said, "it a big mistakes Nadzirah", i got nothing to say. i know you have your own reasons for saying that but i am sorry if i don't listen to you. i have to follow my heart and i don't want to get hurt without knowing what happen next. and of course thanks to someone who had been helpful to me with her advices and tips and how she change the way i think, from negative to positive. at least there is a little change to me. i bet she know who she is. ;) thanks a lot. you help me A LOT! <3

maybe right now readers wondering what i'm trying to say here?! it's my personal life and i can't put any details information because it's my private life and only my closes friends know about it!

well, what do i miss? seriously i miss A LOT about celebrity world! it's fasting sweetie and we are forbidden to watch any TV Show which contain sexiness for example, E!news, Star Movie, HBO, AXN! HAHA! don't worry, just for the daytime lah, not night time!
i missed plurking and twittering! my laptop still at it's agent! damn! it's almost one months. my TUMBLR was also inactive. everything is inactive except for my facebook and blog! it's annoying you know using computer HAHA! i should grateful then if not, my facebook and blog will be inactive too.

Hey, did you know miley cyrus doing pole dancing? HAHA! she was...at teen choice awards. people seems to be a little upset with her but for me, come on guys, she is 17 years old or 16 i don't remember. she is grow up. nothing wrong with pole dancing. besides, jamie lynn spears is a mother at the age of 16! i should salute these girls huh?! HAHA! and congratulations to KourtneyKardashian! She is having a baby. before this she almost get pregnant (if you watch keeping up with the Kardashian) and of course her baby daddy, is super hot. SCOTT (for me, he is HOT) and Kim Kardashian is become Blonde Babe! she is looks so different. maybe she is so frustrated with her break-up with Reggie Bush!

i think i better off before i talk more and this will turn into more than 2 pages! LABIH jua tu XP

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia selamanya
Nidji - Laskar Pelangi

Thanks Allah ;)

2009-08-24T17:21:00.003+08:00

I got C5 for my english. my breakdown, 8.2.4!
it was the best day ever!
congratulation also to those who get credit in english.

In my block 3 :

Syazwan,
Lyiana,
Hazirah,
Amal,

congratz everyone!

six plus one equal to 7!
i got 7 '0'

Seriously Happy and i'm out from english class ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAMA! ;)
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MA!

at least i got them to talk to :)

2009-08-23T22:30:00.003+08:00

it was a blast tadi with Zulfikre and Majidah. they came to my house because of Geography Project. if there is Zulfa, well there will be four of us! ;) No picture were taken since we busy of doing the slide show(mcm si banar) and also gossiping during Ramadan! Gosh, blame Icky for that. they spends almost 3 hours in my house. i just couldn't stop laughing because of Icky. ada ada saja anak atu! banyak dusa kami! and also thanks to them for wiling to hear my problems which is "Angau Problems" i know they might get sick of me HAHA!

Another Day Goes By <3

2009-08-22T12:13:00.009+08:00

Day six! - Almost but nah~

Selamat menyambut Bulan Ramadan and Selamat bepuasa

If we were a movie, you'd be the right guy
And I'd be the best friend that you fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing, watching the sunset Fade to black,
show the names, play the happy song,

Miley Cyrus - If we were a movie

no replies!

2009-08-19T22:48:00.004+08:00

it's day three but still no response. i hope he didn't hate me. Normah in school baybeh! luckily, YES luckily, there is no lesson at the afternoon, so we round, round the school with normah. FUN and SWEAT, A LOT's! too bad she go home early. i don't want to write about my so called prince charming. only me, myself and friends know! i forbid my love life to be write in public unless if i want to HEHE! don't want to make another history. there is two things that is keep bothering my mind lately, my june result and of course HIM! i am really looking forward to learn GP but but here the problem is, what if my GP block was not in block 3(my english is in block 3 and GP block 3 is FULL, maybe)?! means that i have to sacrifice my PS which is block 4 which is i don't want it happen. few months ago, admin changed my block's because of my B.M. if that happens again, i will begging!

they are the reasons why i don't want my block to be change, the boys are cool, they never failed to make us smile and laugh, always, and PS block 4 is the coolest block ever!! if i have to say goodbye, i will cry, that's for sure ;')

please sir, if i get this JUNE, just keep me in GP block 3 alryte?!

It seems like I gotta do wrong

To get your attention
But maybe when I call this man up
You'll finally start to wake up

Hayden Panettiere - Wake Up Call

Bridex 2009

2009-08-15T22:34:00.007+08:00

unforgettable moment ever! went out with PS block 4 girls which is Sharifah, Fathin Nabillah and Nazurah! met with Aisyah Kahar, Habibah, Afifi Roslan, Farid and HELLOWEEN DUDE! (i don't know his name). then head to Jerudong Park. thanks for the treat Afifi ;)

here the picture.

i bet you know which one is me :)

It's all about you now.

2009-08-14T22:38:00.003+08:00

tahlil at my TUA house today. met with my lovely cousins and shared our stories. also met, my second cousins who i haven't seeing them like thousand years. they growing up and even taller than me. keep it up girls!

i think i love you, my so called prince charming. see ya at school <3

tomorrow bridex!

Why are these lights so bright
Oh, did we get hitched last night,
Dressed up like Elvis,
And why, why am I wearing your class ring?

Katy Perry - waking up in the vegas

When a person is cursed, two graves are dug

2009-08-10T14:56:00.003+08:00

YAHOOOOO! finish watching hell girl season three. it's so damn hot especially Ichimoku Ren and the storylines is COOL! two thumps up everyone. (Y)(Y) i watched it for one week, 26 episodes just to kill my boredom.

today school was CHILL! Faiz Bakri keep making funny and stupid sentences during B.Melayu lesson. teacher give him the word "NIPIS". from that word, make a sentences, ready for this, this is Faiz Sentences,

"Bulu dada kaling itu sangat nipis"

HAHA! teacher asked him to change the sentence. he changed it to,

"Rambut perempuan itu sangat nipis kerana dia gunting layer"

see? HE IS OUR JOKER IN B.MELAYU LESSON!

MY PS was as usual, FUN AND EXCITEMENT! towards to the end of the period, watching Funny Videos with dudes and babes and L6-5 was full of our laughter.

keep my eyes on you

2009-08-08T23:50:00.006+08:00

its saturday and it's weekend.

hello world, my life is getting better every single day. with or without love, its just the same. trying to find out the truth is hard and takes time. if we are lucky, we might get one but if not, then we have to wait forever. i just wonder why the love letter guy is afraid to come forward and tell the truth. i know he might be shy but he is sooooooooo overly shy! but never mind, i won't force him to say it beside my heart in the process of healing. yes, its still broken and i don't know how to fix it. finding someone new, maybe but still, i fall for him and when my love towards him will over, not sure. this is the moment where new guy come and rescue me but sadly it's only happen in the movie. i tired so hard, very hard to throw those feelings away but its always come back when loneliness strike me or when i saw him. feelings of jealousy towards his girlfriend eating me. i want to hate her but she is a very nice girl and eventhough she knew about me, she never hate me. she take care of him very well and all i can see here is they are getting stronger each day and i know someday, i will give up on him. we just have to wait for that day. and i'm looking forward to start over again. maybe the new version of me could be more different and will not repeating the same mistakes again! that for sure.

i had fun in GIANT TODAY! with, LEKOR AND DIMSUM!

Takziah to Zuriani and her family for the passing of her mother. ZU, be strong girl, ALLAH love your mother more.

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong

Hold on and don't shed a tear

Celine Dion- a new day has come

hey, Normah Azrinah, i love you forever

2009-08-06T22:44:00.006+08:00

this post will dedicated to normah azrinah who will leaving SMSO and start a new life in saturday.
first of all, congratulation babe for being accepted to MKJB! i am speechless you know when fathin told me because i don't see it coming. but hey, i know it's hard for you make this decision. you been with us since in form two and now you go away, it's hard for me to believe it. you might be thinking about us too right, whether chasing your dream or left your friends behind. if i were you, i could do the same thing. don't worry Normah, eventhough we are far away (Brunei is a small country) we can still contacting each other via, phone, facebook, blog and messenger. we also can meet each other.

And Normah, i wish you the best there and goodluck! forgive me if i done so many bad things to you and its a LOT's! i know. we were young and done lot's of mistakes. and please do not forget to recommend me to your friends (the boys). before you have a boyfriend, let me have one first okay! Normah,LOVE YOU and Will Be Missing you every seconds of our days. sweetheart, i don't know how i'm gonna though this lives without you.

today, aku puasa sunat nisfu syaban with my family!

Mask Day

2009-08-05T14:52:00.005+08:00

Happy Mask day everybody! HAHA! for the first time since entering secondary school, this is the first time i'm wearing a mask. blame that haze because i can't breathe properly and it's hurting my eyes. surprised news hitting us...for a moment. Normah had been accepted to MKJB as she was on the waiting list. she was taking plant engineering ( don't ask me, i don't know what it is either). all of us keep begging her not to move but she not sure either. if she move, i'm fine and happy for her because it's was her dream. she was given three days to think about it and have to wait for tomorrow if she will move or not. think carefully babe and just follow your hearts. we managed to take some pictures, so here it is.

Haze, go away

2009-08-04T14:50:00.005+08:00

hot topic for today is HAZE. God, this haze (almost) killing me. i can't breathe properly plus the weather is hot. making me more hotter than before. luckily, i got new fan dude. oldest one is not functioning properly. tomorrow, i will wear mask. for sure. normah, you better wear it okay. we will be partners in crime. wooooooohoooooooo!!

i am sick writing the same routine everyday. go to school then blablabla. you, readers must be bored right to read the same things everyday, (if there is someone who is actually read mine).

i am not sure about my feelings right now. I'm not even sure if i have any feelings for the love letter guy. i fall for three guys at the same time, who? no need for you to know. let it be my secret. i am making some confession here and confusion hitting me. i can't even tell which one will i choose. i have one option left, let them go. I'm still young and i know my journey is still long and need guidance. after several heartbreaks, its hard for me to believe in love again. fall for them is easy but it's not even love. it's a crush. i don't even know if happy ending is really exist or it's just a fairy tales! I DON'T KNOW.

Ada Dua Cinta Di Hati
belum Bisa Aku Pastikan
bila Aku Harus Memilih

sepertinya Cinta Takkan Memilih

Agnes Monica - Kamu Dan Kamu

Zulfa, IMISSYOUTOO!

2009-08-03T20:00:00.008+08:00

Zulfa, sorry babe didn't reply your message because my credit got suspended! "AWU JUBURKU, KAU, AKU MISS JUA" INDA NAMPAK TITLE KU TU? ehe. and ILOVEYOU! i just wondering how's your life in your new school. if you ask mine, it's great but but, there is a time i'm searching for you especially during geography lesson, seeing you empty chair and guess what, nadai org duduk tempat mu. Tiqah, your new replacement! and not forgetting, Zu jua! zulfa, when will you come to school? faiz already. so, zulfa, AKU RINDU KAU! COME BACK HERE!

okay, school was oh-so-tired!! wait, did i already told you about the identity of the love letter guy? of course i won't tell it here. it's secret! YES readers, i know who, my friends know too so do you love letter guy. let's see how long this game will last. i am waiting here and will always do...maybe.
bear in mind love letter guy, i don't like waiting. make a move or just let me go. you decide and i'm here. just so you know, i fall for someone else. BOOM! you are losing. tick tock tick tock, time is clocking and you are wasting it.

as usual monday was monday. first lesson, of course geography, then b,melayu lesson which is kinda bored. to be honest, i really don't like learning bahasa melayu one because it's boring. i love sastera much. break after that then, english lesson. english lesson is on my number one list for the boring subject ever. i desperately want to learn GP! i don't give it a damn if they said GP is harder and its better learn english. stupid people said that. why you prefer learning english huh? they said the requirement to get scholarship is at least credit at english. for your information, it's GP. right now, they want GP not English! if i'm wrong, so be it. whatever!

what else? oh yeah, four of my crazy friends is really crazy! siapa nah, Majidah, Fizah Hashim, Fathin Mazziyah and Normah Azrinah! they will give me one dollar, each of them, making it four dollars if i say hi to love letter guy. "bejudi jua durang atu!" but honestly, i will do it even without giving me money. but hey, not right now. "inda ku berani" sorry, it seems like you have to wait for him NOT ME to make the first move. sorry, that's sooooooo not me!

So let me on down
'Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
JoJo - Too Little Too Late

Oh- My - Lappy!

2009-07-31T21:45:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, my laptop was send to it's agent for checks-up. sadly, it have to stay there for about one month or less than that. i'm not sure either! surprised how i'm updating my blog? luckily. there is my mother computer. i wrote computer not laptop! the workers there try to scare us. the way he looks, like my laptop is damaged completely but it's not. it's just his nature and guess what, they are laughing at me when they saw avast plus NOD?! *MALU JUA KU TU* and i'm so damn worrying that sims 3 might be the reason why my laptop act that way and they even think like that but they said, no worries! sony vaio is a very sensitive laptop! BANAR! after this, he prevent us to download any application from the internet and just install from them. H-E-L-L-O! we live in tutong and just one application we have to go there? just wasting time. and, while using/playing laptop, must NOT place it "arh tempat berlapik" must place it "arh meja yg nda belapik, for eg. meja computer"! we NEVER been informed this! NEVER!! SHOCKING. today, they called us and say, they have to send it to either miri or singapore! SONY VAIO IS A VERY SEPCIAL LAPTOP! KEBESARAN!

today, there is an event at kampong which is "tahlil" it's kinda hot and yeah, i kept "garu-garu psal nyamuk suka aku!" back home at 6 pm. not much to tell here because it's friday and nothing to share! before end this post,

happy birthday to Haziq Julaihi! have a blast boy.

I wanna roll with him a hard pair we will be
A little gambling is fun when you're with me I love it
Russian Roulette is not the same without a gun
And baby when it's love if its not rough it isn't fun, fun
Lady Gaga - Poker Face

Here i am

2009-07-29T17:42:00.005+08:00

i'm still here. my laptop still here. don't know when will i fix my laptop maybe tomorrow! just a minor problems nothing serious, i think! let just wait and see what the hell is problems with my sweet laptop. *lappy, you know i love you,* but i'm freaking worried if my laptop will be format but i tihnk the problems with my laptop is the fan isn't working properly. even until now, it will turn off by itself just after like 20 or 30 minutes. even if i used the cooling fans. so cross fingers everyone, tomorrow we will know what cause my laptop to turn off by itself!

i supposed to watch fireworks last saturday and stay at empire but my mum cancel it due to this BABI YG BAUTA AH! my mum already booked empire for likes 3 weeks ago just to watch the fireworks but had to cancel! * udh booked awal awal nda tia jadi BABI ATU PALUI aku banci babi!!* and i hate poklen berabis. aku anti-poklen. so woever talk to me or chat me with Z, X or V ,Q in every of your words, for sure, no response from me! because you are so old-fashioned!

then about this KA! i'm not sure if he is the love letter guy but today, i'll try to get his responsive but useless! i used all of my energy to show my face in everywhere he goes but got nothing! my friends did try too but unfortunately no result at all. so, dead end! i don't know how long do i have to keep looking for him because i'm getting bored with this mysterious boy who is really afraid to confess his love to me! okay moving on.

my school life is oh-so marvellous. my past days was really enjoying especially with zuriani. i love being with her because she is very funny, nice and friendly. well, got presentation during geography lesson but sadly our group which consists of zulfikre ,zuriani, atikah, majidah and me was lost! and in the last place. nevermind though because i know we already try our best besides it's a last minute plan by teacher. And also from now on, i will go back home earlier than before if i don't have any subjects in the afternoon because of some reasons. well, i was famous for being lepak-ing in canteen alone *sometimes* if i don't have any subject in the afternoon example, monday, thursday and saturday!

let me talk about MJ! people in hollywood still keep talking about MJ! how long will this story gonna end? he is dead already. since he's dead, he seemed to be more famous than when he was alive before! weird right?! even now people begin to love him and become the biggest fan of him. but he is dead already. people keep downloading his songs and videos. WOAH if he still alive, for sure he will super rich and it could help him to pay all of his debts! yes, i know i am talking about him now but i'm writing this, just to let you know how weird people is. it's not only happen to MJ only, even to other celebrities who had dead before like heath ledger, farah fawcett, elvis presley and etc! they begin to watch heath ledger family and he keep wining an award. sadly, he was dead already. why not before this. in 2005, he was nominated for an oscar but he didn't win. i think he should win at that time because he is potrays as GAY! a very challenging character. he even had to kiss jake gyllenhall! so, i hope media could let MJ rest in peace and stop talking the bad things about him. it's already enough what he had been through when he was alive. and please respect him and his family!

so, the end of my post for today. will update it another day. so stay tune and pray the best for me. thanks :)

i am Nadzirah.

2009-07-27T13:59:00.005+08:00

ignore my title. i delete my previous post. because i want to. i don't feel like blogging nowadays because certain problems but the big one is my laptop didn't functioning properly. i just realised that the fan in my laptop is not working anymore due to overheat. for your information, my laptop is sony vaio and it had been known that sony vaio for overheating. tomorrow will bring it to the mall for check-up and thank god, the warranty haven't expired yet, it will be in november and also marked one year of my laptop :) so, if there is no updates for weeks, means that my laptop wasn't with me.

my school life as sixth form student was just like yours. study, meeting friends at school, exam and blablabala. few days ago was quite tiring and good news, i passed all my subject. i should proud of myself because i'm still survived. but not a very good result though because i don't even get one A! just C and D! worst. i used to be best student when i am in secondary but this year, i'm just a big fat loser! forget it.

and i feel guilty about this, i forgot my own girlfriends birthday. i bet she might be upset. sorry babe :( by the way, happy belated birthday nurul fathin maziyyah and today her boyfriend birthday. cute right! same month but different day. today, i had lot's of fun during PS! bullying majidah with zuriani and fathin maziyyah. and also the most tiring day ever!

last night was fun because "aku jadi pengacau status org difacebook" let me show you.

the end! :)

Don't waist you fiction tears on me

Just save them for someone in need
It's Way to late

I'm closing the door
ashley tisdale - it's alright it's okay.

history - i don't want another you :(

2009-07-22T15:09:00.004+08:00

i wish he could save my day - justin hartley - my green arrow

i can consider this day is a very bad day. first, my history marks was low then i don't know where the hell is my money is and i'm hungry and the wind did scare me!

the day went so well, i thought nothing could come to me. english lesson in the morning and got my marks already, i got C. not really proud of it because i'm expected more higher than that but never mind, it's doesn't matter anyway. what matters to me is that, my history marks is very low that it actually affected me inside and out! i'm willing to "isolate" my geography just want to get the best marks on history, now looks, it's not even worth it. not worth it at all. just a waste. i'm failing my geography test over and over and over again. i don't care about geography but history?! it's my husband. i never get low marks in history. the worst one was when i was in form 3. but that's it.

here what i'm gonna do. i'm gonna take what is mine back, the crown of history! i will take it no matter how. i'll will do anything as long as i back at the top! it's suck you know knowing that your marks was bad! before this i am the best! sorry if i am too proud of myself :) i feel like i am a biggest loser! you might say, "oh it just a test" but for me, no, it's not. i almost shed my tears during history lesson but i managed to hold it because i know sir didn't like to see his students cry over a test! but i'm not blaming sir or anyone over this history marks. i am blaming myself! before i am blowing up some bombs here, i better stop talking about my not-so-hot history marks!

and Zulfikre, sorry for scolded you. when i'm asking apology to him, he said "i know" thanks :)
he was making a jokes during the strong winds today by saying " nad, kereta pajero mu ah terabang" HAHAHA! funny right but i wasn't laughing at that time, instead i'm saying "it's not even funny" sorry ye zulfikre. really! but thanks too for understanding me. thank you so much. but hey you did make me smile for a while dude, your jokes make me laugh non-stop until now. and also, sir DR called syazwan with a very funny name or should i say a girl name?! what is it? just ask him! HAHA! ketawa ku eh

Bah, i'm off now.

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
They tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time

And I don't need no carryin' on

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

Do You Miss Me?

2009-07-20T19:44:00.005+08:00

i ate this for 3 days. just me! HAHA! tamak aku tu. oh, it's mint chocolate my favourite!

blogging, i miss you! really. it's good to be back here. i don't know if there is anyone who actually miss me. i am sorry that i make my blog private for a while. there is no update at all and i know you might get bored reading the same post. there is lot's to write here but i will keep it simple if i could because when i'm blogging, i couldn't stop it. REALLY!

how to start this? emm. maybe i should start with my school life. i still having my test but only one left. i'm missing in action because of history and geography. emm. the test was went well. i managed to answer the questions especially history. and geography too. thanks God! and i am proud of myself too. eventhough i didn't have the best marks but at least i try. overall, all the test was great! wait for my marks okay! i can't wait.

my school friends was COOL! all of them. i had so much fun being with them. they did cheers my day. because lately, my mood was unstable. from happy to sad then to happy and sad again. lot's of things to think about. i was thinking about my future HAHAHA!

then before the test, i got a very very very good news. want to know? here it is. picture below!

my history essay! finally i passed . its my german essay and holiday homeworks. before this i got 5 and 14 only. it make me smile all day. i am proud of myself :) there is no complain at all. NO! i was shocked. and of course happy.

moving on.

how my love life? BORING! still single! damn it. i hate it. seriously, i need a boyfriend. but hey i am not that desperate. of course i want a boyfriend now but not that desperate get it?! not gonna talk about love letter guy or whatsoever anymore except for this post because it's boring. okay, if you don't want to show up your face, so do I. so, i will make you miss me till death! sound cruel? HELL YEAH! because i am sick of you. COWARD just like CHUCK BASS!! so, just stop being my secret admire, you got nothing! seriously!!

and now i am addicted to SIM 3!

i was supposed to watch harry potter last thursday but but my mum said NO! because of swine flu. i hate you BABI! but my mum said "hari isnin cuti ah, liat ja ari isnin, nda jua sekulah and murah" happy berabis gue eh. but one problem. NAZURAH exam esuknya! eish. until when will i watch harry potter. but i was thinking to watch it this week or next week. as long i watch it, it's enough! i don't care if you said aku ketinggalan. just shut up your mouth!

i will update more later on. maybe tomorrow. just wait. i know there is someone who actually love to read my blog. i know! but just don't spread a dirty or false rumors about me. and to who is not accept my friend request on facebook, HAHA! i know who. about five or 2 people haven't accept it but they always online, everyday. i wonder, busy hantap durang atu kan accept aku. funny, why the guy that i crush few months ago would accept my request but you can't?! i don't have any problems with you! i add you because you are my inspiration! but now look what you done. such a waste! you know yourself. no, i am not mad at you but just a little bit frustration. i thought you are nice person but you not!

and one more thing, i am sorry if there is similarities between my blog or behaviour or post with the others! it's just coincidence. don't called me a copycat because i'm not! i am being myself! i never ever follow anyone. never!! i end my post here :)

I know your type
Boy you're dangerous
Yeah you're that guy
I'd be stupid to trust
But just one night couldn't be so wrong
You make me want to lose control
Leighton Messter feat Cobra - Good girl Go Bad

I LOVE YOU (L)

2009-07-11T21:34:00.003+08:00

CUTE!

here is my sweet update.

yesterday - friday.

LOT's of fun with my relatives at kampung. laughter! it was fun and all my problems seems to go away for a while as they cheer me up eventhough they didn't know it.

today was just like any ordinary day. there is sadnees, happiness and confusion. i don't know either. my mood was changing through time to time and i'm sorry if i hurt any of you. Majidah and Fizah maybe bored to listen to me as i kept talking about who the love letter guy. whether is he or he! i don't know. i fall in love with someone who might love me or not. there is 3 suspected guys. but within 3 of them, i fall in love with one of them. won't mention who in here because i might be famous again for the second time and i don't want that to happen again. i'm so sick to think who are you love letter guy because it's already 3 months now but still i can't figure it out. you give me clues but i'm not sure. in your class there is only 3 of you that is actually single and available which is including you, maybe. so i don't know if i should just give up or keep looking. you tell me. i'm also tired to talk about this to my friends and i know they too. just so you know, i am not a very patience girl. i hate waiting. so please do not make me wait for hundreds years. or else it will be a big loss for you and myabe for me. i can't make the first move because i am afraid that i will hurt again. and i don't want as i took me so long to heal.

let just move to school.

my temperature was high - 36 degree. and everyone is too. is there is something wrong with thermometer or WE ARE JUST HOT! history was revising while geography is "do your own works" HAHA! again. this is the fourth time. break time i spent on listening to music as i was being EMO for a while. Having a test during B.Melayu and the test was easy. i love doing summary. english was just okay. so sleepy. at the end of the lesson sir DR. want us to listen celine dion song - i'm alive. one of my favourite song and i sing along with celine :P and sir asked me to sing that song next lesson! HAHA! jgn sir, pengsan karang!

my afternoon class is PS! as usual every saturday hangout at the canteen with my girls till 2 pm since we got no lesson at all. every saturday only. at first i spent the time with the boys as we the english student was out early. straight to the canteen with JAZZ! bought food and waiting for my girls but they are late and i'm hungry already so i ate. there is nothing special going on. listen to music all the time till i reached home. but i waiting for that suspected love letter guy at bus stand but he didn't show up. maybe he was having a test at that afternoon.

so, that's my day. tired and i miss him so much because i didn't saw him during break time, lunch time and at the bus stand. just once i guess, when i bumped with him on my way to the english period. emmm...

Feeling Blue,
Well im trying to forget the feeling that i miss you,
Feeling Green,
When the jealousy sweels and it wont go away and dreams,
Feeling Yellow,
Im confused inside a little hazy but mellow.
When i feel your eyes on me,
Feeling fine, its sublime,

When that smile of yours creeps into my mind.

Colourblind - Darius.

Aku CUTE BH! :P

2009-07-09T17:10:00.004+08:00

HAHA! LAWA AKU TUU (Y) IATHBH!!

thursday is today, a very nice day. lucky me there is no long queue at the foyer. check temperature and then straight to the class. my flu is coming back. and i'm starting to coughing! geezzzz! but hey! i'm fine. totally.

my first period is PS! nothing much that we do except that i sat at the smiley boy chair! i didn't know at first but Fathin Nabillah told me. i just listen to music all the time, wait, i listen and rename the song! it's majidah fault! HAHA! i spent almost entire PS editing the song name. there is 145 song in my mobile phone and i had to change some of it due no name! from 8.00 till 8.40! gila, sangal tgn ku! people might thought i was chatting on MSN or sending messages. AHAHA :P

oh, i saw him everwhere, everywhere i go, there is him. during lunch, on my way to the stairs, there is him, bustand, he just near me, i mean so close but i was with haffis karim. hope he didn't think that haffis is my boyfriend. we never talked. NEVER! both of us were SHY!

"Kau tau kau begitu ingin bersamaku

Karena aku pun juga ingin bersamamu"

we just skip history and break okay. Geography lesson after break. geng geng geng, teacher is absent. third day without any lesson! HELL YEAH FUN! waht else to do, HANGOUT! yesterday with majidah and zulfikre, today with, Majidah *nda pandai tinggal ank ane*, Farhanah, Atikah and Zuriani! HAHAHAHA! kan pacah parut ku ketawa oleh drg ane! they are FUNNY! BANAR-BANAR! Zuriani & Atikah! Majidah & Zuriani! when they met, nothing could stop them! if you had a bad day, they will "heal" you. i was laughing so hard. zuriani was very funny. ada-ada sja ank atu!
RUGI ORG ATU PINDAH AH, KAMI SEMUA BAHAGIA DISINI! :P

B.Melayu lesson was awesome, NOT! aha. SYAIR?! not mine. thing that keep me enjoying b.melayu lesson is FIZAH!! because we are not concentrating at our lesson, instead we are joking around. Fizah suka HIJAUDAUN! oh yeah. she kept singing hijaudaun song "suaraku" over and over again. no lesson at the afternoon, hanging out at the canteen with fizah, zulfikre, then syariah students came, so, haffis karim joined us. they are games freak! REALLY REALLY FREAK! zulfikre kept telling me about games which i don't know. i just "MCM SI TAHU" ahaha. ANTAM JA! back home at 2! the end.

English +Malay = ROJAK! suka hati aku lah.

Buktikanlah kau cinta padaku
Buat aku tergila-gila padamu
Jangan dulu kau lelah menunggu
Ku ingin lihat kesungguhanmu
Sebelum ku bilang I Love you…

Nindy - Buktikan

I got LOT's of PS today :)

2009-07-08T15:29:00.009+08:00

PS time. taken by haffis karim.
AWU KABUR! :P and sorry fathin nabillah. i am blocking you!

my day start with a big smile on my face! i am excited to see someone smile :) that smile keep appear on my mind. your smile boy, your smile! if you are the one, then tell me! because i want that smile so much and i want you too. if you read this, yes i want you now! and here is magical words for you, i love you! ~~suspected love letter guy~~! whether it was you or not, i am loving you. you watching me, i watching you too. friends, do not laugh at me. i am in love with someone who doesn't want to say he love me too. i fall for him already. if it was him! if not, i will keep loving him anyway.

"We could be beautiful
We could be so special
We could be wonderful"

test in the early morning, english test. aha. how easy the test was. the easiest test ever. PS gone wild for four of us. i asked afifi roslan to show his handphone and them haha, including me, sakai.
hot and LAWA bh! rugged (Y). i got bad news from them, someone is absent! i am so frustrated! i miss him. :(

history, geogrpahy - no lesson at all! aha. teachers said, do your own work! we did our own works with zulfikre and majidah! listen to music all the time! zulfikre - your song make me sleepy! ahaha. majidah - you better pay me. how many songs you bluetooth-ing yesterday and today? it cost you emm, $2 per song! :P jk.

lunch at canteen with my girl and jazz. while i eating, i saw him at canteen. i told fizah. fizah, you almost ruined my day. normah and fizah lied to me. they say he is moving to MD! gosh, i almost believed that. but, he is not. they said maybe he was late! it's lunch already, i wonder where he go. where did you go boy? are you moving? if you are, i'm gonna miss you! :(

B.Melayu test was easy?! maybe. HAHAHA! go home at 2, bump with him at the bustand while talking with my friends. he sat there alone. i thought he gone home already but he was there. are you looking at me or my friends?! ehehe.

Love's not an easy thing
Always somebody gets hurt
I know you were meant for me, even though she saw you first

M2M - What you do about me

Sexy Can I ;)

2009-07-07T15:58:00.007+08:00

Ray J song. cute but it's dirty AHAHA! and SEXY!

Thank you Normah (L)

i am back... to school! i don't want to at first but thinking about my test, i had to. i'm still having a flu but not that serious. don't worry, you are safe with me! normal lesson like everyday. no need to write it here. english, history and Geo - no lesson. i am happy.

with Majidah all day! during break, english, history and lunch! but not all the time. thanks majidah for company me during break time. PS was Crazy! HUGE! Fathin Nabillah and Sharifah gone wild! HAHAHA! it's fun, it's hot! WE HOT! thanks for the music fathin haha. eh, majidah love that song! kan kan Majidah?! new word from fathin nabillah, TELEPOD! combination of ipod and telephone. ;)

hangout with azeem during lunch as there is no geography lesson. i just listening to music and azeem do his own works. i am back home at 2.

congratulation to nazurah, you are officially MPP! and i am JEALOUS and MAD! i am! my dreams never come true. being one of them since form one. who should i blame for not making me one of them :(

~~i love your smile, love letter guy!~~

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

Miss you but I try not to cry

-Mariah Carey. Bye Bye.

don't wait for me at school ;)

2009-07-05T21:49:00.002+08:00

i won't show my face tomorrow! i am not feeling well and it's not good for everyone. don't worry i'm at the safe place called HOME! i just having a normal flu. no big deal. and don't be afraid of me. everyone told me to stay at home. and i will. don't know how long i might be absence. but if you love me, you will wait for me!

- Luna Maya Version of Suaraku(berharap) was NICE than HIJAU DAUN
-Daughtry version of poker face was NICE than LADY GAGA! two thumb's up!

no quotes or any lyric i post today. HAHAHA!

Proud of Myself ;)

2009-07-04T14:10:00.008+08:00

i am selfish - i proud of that

i am bad temper - i proud of that

these 2 things, people always said it to me whether if they are joking or they mad. it just the same because it just who i am. this is why i rather be alone than being with the crowds. they don't know who i am. once they know, they will throw me away. i love being selfish, i do. i love doing things on my own, lived in my own world, no one care about me. that's good! REALLY good! i enjoy living as selfish. bad temper is one of my best ability! do i need to explain more?! i don't think so. and please do not ask me to treat you for lunch or buy you something except it's your birthday! i am 'PENGARIT' oh boy, i am. i'll buy things just for me not for people. gosh, you have your own pocket money. if i ask you out, doesn't mean i'll treat you, silly! unless, that day, i have a very GOOD MOOD! VERY yeah.

since i was a kid's until now, friends at school always called us, RICH KID's. that's why they hate us because we are RICH KID's! they even spread false rumors! i know they just a kids but hey they are silly! silly kid's! REALLY SILLY! they told the whole school that we are "AMBUNG" see, they are silly! REALLY SILLY! i was only 8 years old! gosh, where they got those stories. these things happen when in sekolah ugama bukit beruang! but in primary school, SEKOLAH RENDAH TUMPUAN TELISAI, this things did not happen! why this things happen that every students in sekolah ugama bukit beruang hates us and believe those stupid stories from silly kid's! do i ever forgive them? HELL NO! rasa tah kamu. i remember those faces kali ah!

i just wonder, why everyone said, "NADZIRAH, KAYA kali ah" and my respons will be "AMIN"
aha, no i'm not mad, just wonders, it's not happen to me only, to my entire family! aha. we only can say "AMIN"

i am talking about me and my past. i don't want to do my revision since i am lazy. my first test will be this tuesday and it was geography. gosh, i haven't read it. not even once!

Grab a little Gucci bag,
And some Prada shoes.
Here, take my credit card,
They're all here to wait on you.
Jimmy Choo calls out your name,

the good life - hannah montana

Today is Friday!

2009-07-03T14:03:00.006+08:00

hello friday people!

i can't wait to go to school! friends, yes you hear it, I CAN'T WAIT TO GO TO SCHOOL!
i know! i hate school but come on seriously, i really need SCHOOL, NOW!
but i hope. just hope, when school reopen, NO MASK please! gosh, do we need to be superhero?
and one more thing, right now i was having a flu, the normal one of course so my friends, keep your distance from me okay, and i think i will need that mask. oh mask, i am so not into you. you better protect me okay. i never imagine myself wearing a mask at school! CALI!

as you know, i had 3 blogs, one of them is not even blogspot but tumblr! i've seen this kind of blog but nah, they just don't attract me at all but then when one of my friends in MSN told me about this and it's speciallity, i decide to join. maybe i should thank to him because hell yeah, im addicted baybeh! my friend, thank for introduce this to me and now, im having fun play with it!
but i really enjoying posting a picture than words! feel free to visit and do leave messages at my shoutbox. to be honest, i'm still new in this things and sometimes it's confusing. anyone who has this kind of blog, do guide me. don't let me lost in the city. it's not even idioms or phase!

everyone, i finished watching gossip girl season 2. i know i'm late! i love and hate the ending. love because chuck was oh-so-romantic and georgina in college aha! hate, because i'm jealous of blair!
that's it. season 3 will be in this september. the cast already back to the set. check out their picture at the set of gossip girl including the picture of ed westwick picked his nose. totally gross aha! just type it at google, GOSSIPGIRL INSIDER.

and ghost hunters is rocks! yeah beybeh! currently watching it at youtube. gosh, there is few episodes that freaking me out. i don't know how many percent this series is real and damn, it does scare me off! and one of the investigator was so damn hot.

there he is, DAVE TANGO! sweet.

and oh my twitter reached 100 followers! thanks. i didn't know who was them but if you follow me, i'll follow you back. i wish there is someone that i knew in my twitter, there is but we are just not that close, so that my twitter will be fun to use. and my plurk, now i know how to use it. i know, i'm LAME! whatever guys. i had myspace but it giving me a headache everytime i open my account. i don't know where to start. oh my!

this song is for you MJ! the one and only song that i love, no i'm not kidding. i should thank to hafiz subli for introducing this song to me few months ago! funny right, i just knew this song this year and now he is gone just when i wanted to know him more, i mean his song!

You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

michael jackson - you're not alone

Lindsay Lohan, Happy Birthday Babe ;)

2009-07-02T13:02:00.002+08:00

i've 3 blog!

2009-06-30T10:13:00.007+08:00

do i need to talk about it?! just don't expect for me to update all of them okay! there is a time when i need them. and please don't be so surprise if i made another one aha, kidding's! the only thing that i want you to do is don't ask me why i made it. it's me and i can do whatever i want and i like. just do what you are supposed to do and let me with my own world! that's it, simple right! i bet you can do it!

i'm sorry that i'm lack of updates. not because im sick of blogging, HELL NO! but it's just i need to do something which is more important than blogging. and also, we are still in holiday and got nothing to post. just blog for something crap or random. btw, i LOVE random!

last night, i'm watching superhero movie! just so you know, i hate this type of MOVIE, which end with MOVIE. for example, date movie, epic movie, disaster movie and scary movie! i mention all of them. there is MOVIE that i love, which is scary, superhero and date. only these movie are acceptable than the others. this type of movie spoof the other movies i mean like harry potter or narnia. but last night, superhero movie was totally hilarious but still there is some parts i hate to watched especially the sexy one. gosh, when come to the sexy part, they good at it, and i hate it. because it like watching dirty thing. they were like too much! i'm complaining much huh? that's what i like. then, scary movie was just fine, as long it make us laugh i'm okay with it. besides i LOVE anna faris in scary movie. she looked cute. and the unexpected one is alyson hannigan at date movie. i never expect she might be starring at that kind of movie aha. i know her at buffy and also how i met your mother.

then, people current obession is shia and transformer. man, what is so special about shia anyway. yes he is hot but i still looked a him as a kid. he was in even steven back in old days. he just not- so - hot aha. why not megan fox? zulfa*kirai-kirai* psstt, she is bisexual! i mean megan. or josh duhamel? okay, maybe one day i will fall for shia but not now, my heart always scream ZACHARY QUINTO! p/s : i'm NORMAL!

back to my gossip girl where there is no ending at all! i watched it online but halfway, the video is BOOM! gone and broken! damn, its already halfway DUDE! i need to watched it just before school reopen. i think there is LOT's to watch besides gossip girl. i missed few episodes of 90210 and one full season of smallville! i might buy it if i have to since its really hard to find it online. there is but not available in Brunei. and i don't want to download it. the internet connection was not-so-cool.

woah i talked to much. when i'm talking, it seems that i'll never stop. but okay i need a rest from blogging now and here i come gossip girl, you better be nice to me gossip girl! aha. i'm sick of waiting.

You're eyes were shining
Your smile was so kind
When I saw you I wanted you to be mine

M2M-Girl in your dreams

I'M Back.. ;)

2009-06-27T22:38:00.005+08:00

Lot's of stories to tell, and NOPE everyone i'm not travelling during holiday, and YES i'm in BRUNEI only! missing me readers?! but i do miss blogging. as i said on my previous post, i'll missing because of my TONS of HOMEWORK! i managed to stay away from blogging since tuesday until now. only one homeworks left, i'll do it tomorrow. besides holiday was extended to 1 week more. my addiction to internet seems to decreasing, i should proud of myself right ehe. and this post might be LONG so, as always take a deep breath if you want to read my blog till the end ;)

okay we start with devastated news where people around the world shock with it! the king of pop, MICHAEL JACKSON was passed away yesterday. i, at that time just finishing my shower when i heard the news on television. i thought they are making a joke but NO, its true. i am not the biggest fan of MJ, but it's really really sad that sometimes i think i am dreaming! as everyone said, "it's a tragic loss" and left people to speechless. at the same time, another star died because of cancer. charlie angel's star, FARAR FAWCETT was passed away too. hollywood was mourning with the death of these stars.

now, we switching gears, enough with sad news, proceed to my holiday!

on 24th JUNE,

went to kampung to look for my angah new house. it's beautiful anf fresh aha. of course its FRESH since its new. transformer 2 was release to theater. nazurah booked for 3 ticket at empire but sadly, had to cancel due to some reasons. then went to the mall just to clear our mind. our first plan was empire beach but then it's cancel and my brother in law brought us to the mall. WOAH, LOT's of people there since it's the premier of transformer! well, everyone want to be the first to watch it excluding ME! i wrote EXCLUDING! nothing much at the mall, just like always. blablabla. thanks to my brother in law and my sister for treating us at mister pizza. while eating there, we were thinking of something. nazurah wants to watch transformer so badly along with my brother in law and my sister so, my mum called rizqun and YES we will stay there

25th JUNE

packing to go to rizqun hotel and thank god, there is empty rooms. but my homeworks haven't finish yet so i just left it at home since its holiday and i hate bringing my homeworks to the hotel. they just ruined my mood! no need to write detail-detail information here. i'll make it short. as planned, nazurah, my brother in law and my sister watched transformer at 11 PM!! yes almost midnight! gosh, once i watched a movie at 11 PM, which is ERAGON! but since we stayed at hotel, it doesn't matter anyway. but but, i didn't watched tranformers since i dont had any interest to this movie i dont know why, people are so eager to watch it but i'm not! ehe, i'm actually dying to see G.I JOE! but, it only release in AUGUST! August will be fasting month, means that i might not gonna watching it. i don't like watching during fasting month. i feel like i'm making a SIN! aha, although it's not except if there is a sexy scene. so, i become babysitter. take care of sumayyah with my mum until they came back to the rooms which is 2 AM! i was so sleepy at that time that i had to borrow my mum phone to play a game to make sure my eyes "brighter".

26th JUNE

supposed to be checking out from the hotel, but my mum had another brilliat idea! we are countinues out stay till saturday but different room! i can't believe my mum just do that aha. of course i'm happy. who doesn't! at least i got time to shopping for FOOD! i gain my weight during my stay at hotel. i ate a lot and i hate it. so friends, please when school reopen do not asking me about my weight or saying i'm gaining my weight! i surely will kill you! this day, its time for FOOD DAY! along with my cousin, we went down to the ground! the food that i'm really REALLY craving with since few months ago, TOKAYAKI! UMMMMMM.....it's super duper YUMMY! long time no eat this things! and then we sharing in buying brownies and chocolate cakes. GOD! everything seems like heaven aha. no kidding.

27th JUNE - today!

im HOME! after spending 3 days, 2 night at hotel, right now i'm home. i'm totally missing my blanket and my pillow and my rooms and everything in my house, i am missing them! hey readers let me share you this stories. before we checked out, WE spending our time at rooms since we already tired to go down. we watching tv inside. of course we want to check the update regarding MJ death but the stories still the same since last night. i don't know who change the channel but i was listening to music at that time. it's star movie. Movie called NEVER BEEN KISSED! OMG! i've been wanted to see this movie since few years ago but "NDA KESAMPAIAN" ! i know this movies was 10 years ago but by reading the title i know this movie is awesome! besides its DREW BARRYMORE! and YES this movie is so sweet to watch! and ROMANTIC!

Michael Vartan was so young aha i mean right now he is 40 years old and who doesn't know him, ALIAS star and EX-boyfriend to Jennifer Garner. then JESSICA ALBA, she also looked so young here and cute with her bitches attitude! and of course DAVID AQUETTE looked so HOT! all of them are still young ;)

then after that, movie called blind dating which starring chris pine! its 2006 movie. chris pine potrays as blind man. he was totally hot on this movie and this movies is funny too. i didn't watch it till the end since we need to checked out. after checked out, decide to walk around the mall since there is exhibition there about b.mobile! OMG! LOT's of familiar faces and i met BIBI! gosh i mish her, totally. we talked a lots about this and that. babe, glad to see you. you just looked so gorgeous ;)

so it's the end of my stories aha! phew~

just for a while ;)

2009-06-22T21:39:00.006+08:00

who can't resist him? JIN KAZAMA!
just love your CULLENS AND JACOB but not HIM ;) he is my love since i was a kid!
HE might be not REAL but at least i had someone to look at!

okay i will be absence from blogging for a while! i been playing too much with internet and laptop from day and night! i just couldnt stop. i just need to finish my homeworks first then i'll be back! besides there is nothing to blog since its holiday, so there is nothing happening except, watching tv and 24 hours on my laptop! but don't worry, not for too long. i'm still gonna online and facebook-ing! but stop blogging okay. well kinda same aha. but at least okay. i'll try my best to finish my homeworkd BEFORE this friday! then after, relex for a while then, killing my brain for this upcoming test! and oh btw, let me share this to you, if you had internet access at home try to download HANNAH MONTANA the movie soundtrack! okay not all, but listen to the BEST song which is you like ;) believe me, you will LOVE some of the songs! some NOT all! try to listen to it. or you just buy it. i dont know if its already in brunei or not. i think that's it for now! i got nothing to post. but hey, if you need anything, text me on msn or just leave a msg at my chatbox. i will reply if i have my free time. for sure, i will ;) tata everyone. and one more thing, keep follow me on twitter, i think i addicted to it. just type MINTYNADDY! and i need more friends at my plurk because my plurk is kinda bored aha. okay thanks.!

i am jobless!

2009-06-21T14:42:00.006+08:00

oh my, CANDID!

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why don't play with print-screen ;)

they LOVE to follow me at twitter ehe! but they are STRANGERS!

my worst enemy huh? aha. i just wonder who!

this is kinda true!

yes, this is my future job. seriously ;)
i just love HISTORY!

im waiting! aha

one day, i will!

one of my favourite games in facebook!

SHE is my angel (L)

2009-06-19T23:12:00.003+08:00

she is SUMAYYAH ;) my first niece! i love her so much and she is so adorable!
just cute like me ehe. and i dont know what is she staring at aha.

its quite tiring today, as it was the BUSIER day ever! today at my house was held a function called "AQIQAH" for my sweetest lovely niece SUMAYYAH :) all my relative came and fuh~ its really REALLY tired. its like we held wedding ceremony but its NOT! can you imagine how tired i was? i was all sweat since in the morning! busy doing this and that. i could heard my name was called many many times, "ZIRAH!" aha. but never mind at least its fun right. having my cousins was the most enjoying part. we gathered together and hugging all the times. and dont forget kiss on my cheek ehe.

i like the part when all my cousins gathered in my living room, sharing a stories! all the guest has gone home. so, since they were there, why dont open my laptop and access to internet, watching funny videos! haha. riuh bilik atu ketawa gnya! should i tell more?! i think that's enough already!
more picture will be uploaded in my FACEBOOK ;) and other's still at my sis camera!

see, how CRAZY we are?! i looked so damn stupid is this picture aha.
but i love it ;)

tomorrow, supposed to be 5A2 reunion but i cancelled it. i just LOVE my MUM so much. i told my frustration about this reunion things and my mum said bh ke BANDAR! wahhhhhh! thanks mummy, "baik jua sedikit marah ku tu" and my mum also said, lain kali jgn th buat reunion tuu aha. awuuuuuuuu mummy, nda ku buat lagi aha. ;) keep my mouth shut up next time huh? aha.

i think i missing my girls so much, fathin, normah and FIZAH HASHIM! ;)

SMILE (:

2009-06-18T14:09:00.007+08:00

my messy hair. I LOVE! ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAFFIS KARIM! AHA. 18 RIGHT?! TUHA TU LAI AHA. ANYWAYS HAVE A BLAST BIRTHDAY! ;) LOVE YOU HAFFIS I MEAN AS MY FRIENDS DUDE! ALWAYS BE MY FRIENDS ;)

GRABBED FROM YOUR FS

before this i said holiday is suck! okay i take it back! holiday keep me smiling all day.
that's right everyone. holiday is soooooooooo relexing that boys is out of my mind NOW! i keep thinking about this upcoming TEST not EXAM but TEST! first monthly test! grrrrrrr.......
i hate to think about it because it stress me out! what if i FAILED! noooooo way. if it happen, i swear i will crying! really.

and bad news, gathering will be cancel! and sorry to say i think its better right then i was the only one who come! and sorry, i wont also organise this thing again. nobody wants to come! so if you want to do it, do it! but i wont be the one who lead this! im sorry. its official CANCEL!
im so excited about this but well....... i just kept quiet then!

currently, im addicted to a BAND ONCE song called kembalilah. they were actually BRUNEIANS! woah. their song just like indonesian style. i was quite impressive huh? with their performance on that song.

and and this is what they think about me ehe. SYAZWAN tagged me.

Leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember! Don't send a message, leave a comment on here. Next, re-post this in your notes and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty cool (and funny) to see the responses.

Follow this format.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
15. What is my best attribute?

1. Icky.
2. Yes lah.
3. Msa form 2.msa aku kna pndahi pat kmu.
4. Apakn crush anie.accident kh?
5. Nad.nta drng pnggl cmatu....
6. Kau bau kantut.
7. Apa lg impression anie.just kwan jua bh.
8. Apa eh.nda ku mrati.
9. nta a.aku andang ingat urg yg hargai aku.
10. Aku nda dpt bg apapa.just doa spaya smua success.
11. I know you cmatu sja.haha.
12. Kmarin ku jmpa kau jua.
13. Dlu nda lh.anie ssma tell story da.
14. Nda ku pndai post apa nie.hehe.
15. Apa a best attribute mu.hehe.

btw, icky, ko yg kantut! aha. i called him SI KANTUT!

1. Ayai
2. Yep :)
3. bala a..masa Aku pikir ia nazu :$ T.T lol
4. haha becali
5. nazu... sal mua kmu sama haha stupid :P...
6. kind
7. friendly
8. yup
9. twin haha majal~
10. apa a... yg ku mampu hehe
11. not much
12. bila a.... time te clash otw ke class
13. erm.. nup
14. bh mana saja hehe
15. apanah? haha

ayai my senior aha. she think im si nazu! sometimes!

1. Urg Telisai =)
2. of course
3. aku ingat mama mu hahahaha
4. hahaha atu banar~
5. nad, malas ku pikir kan yg lain...
6. cheecky cam cousin ku si normah
7. emm apa ah?lupa ku udah
8. hahaha apanah?
9. ur glasses
10. antah ah cd korea mau ko?
11. well enough hahaha
12. emmm...ntah ah lupa I
13. nop =)
14. eeeemmmmmm...maybe~ sal aku sudah buat
15. kamu suka kacau post/status aku

this one is by AZIZAH cucu hj muhammad! layak usulnya :P
she said im cheeky like si normah! iakah? aha.

1.C syazwan aka pandaa =p
2.Yup. Baru joa kenal =p
3.Balik2 ku tliat ea dskulah. hahaha
4.Apaaaan~ =p
5.uhmmm *processing database* =p...
6.cuteee ahahah nah kambang tia =p
7.IDK haha
8.Not sureee.
9.Her twin AKA BEAR =p
10.Insyaallah inda tau =S
11.Likeee ckit~ 10% majal bru kenal wa =p
12.td dskulah. hahaha
13.Nopee.
14.Insyaallah. haha =D
15.Not yet. hahaha =p maybe in the future i guess so.

and this is PANDA. bukan aku gelar tu, si nazu tuu aha.
he said im cute aha. bangga. baru ku mendgr tu!

Don't say you love me, You don't even know me
If you really want me Then give me some time
M2M - dont say you love me

im not beautiful like them ;)

2009-06-17T14:24:00.005+08:00

sorry for lastnight post my mates. since yesterday, i was having my ..................! yeah, im bad-tempered sometimes. dont try to messing around with me sometimes or even talked to me when i was having my bad mood day. my girls know it when ehe. so, now i dont care if you want to come or not because i wont cancelling that gathering! its still on. im gonna used my last post picture aha.

this holiday is really suck! SERIOUSLY! before this i really want this holiday and now i can't wait to go to school. school has everything. boys and my super duper superwomen aha. at home all day is sickening me! stress all over me. with this upcoming exam which is im not ready Yet! i havent done my revision. NONE! im lazy and last minute girl! but then i managed to get A at my history paper during O level! aha. because i am HISTORY FREAK! i LOVE history and Im so into HISTORY! HISTORY is my life forever. nothing can replace that even a boyfriend! aha. my english is so broken aha. palau!

below was the picture taken by lupa ku siapa ;) during PS.

seated: Bazilah Yusof, Asfiza, Anihazirah, KimChing!
standing : Me,Nazurah, Fathin, Sharifah, Noni and yg atu aku nda tau ehe. sorry.

same as below too.

..

then mee lin tagged me in facebook ehe. LOVE SURVEY! so boys out there, read my survey
i will post some the questions and answers only ;)

The kind of person you're first attracted to.
- funny, caring and romantic ;)

Could you date someone who has been only your friend for a long time?
- maybe.

What makes someone sexy?
- Eyes!

When someone catches your eye, do you try to make eye contact or avoid it?
- avoid it

Describe your significant other or crush.
- caring, romantic and have sense of humor

How many people have broken your heart so bad?
- LOT's.

Would you ever cheat or have you ever cheated?
- neither!

Have you ever loved someone who didn't love you back?
- LOT's. because i was so damn ugly i guess!

Is there ever a happily ever after?
- right now, i really hate that phase!

What are you like when you're in love??
- i ALWAYS smiling ;)

Describe your dream person.
- funny, romantic eyes, and TALL than me.

how long of your relationships was the shortest?
- NEVER!

Which was the longest?
- 10 months

Are you friends with any of your exes?
- of course

Do you wish you were back together with any of your exes?
- i wish!

Do you ever have dreams about your exes?
- NEVER

If you want to get married, what age?
- 25 - 30!

The reason you love your significant other or crush.
- because of his attitude!

The thing you love about being single:
- BORING!

The person who's on your mind right now:
- the one who give me LOVE LETTERS. i wonder who he is ;)

end of my post! sorry, i post random post. nothing to post! just keep reading my blog
and please dont spam my chatbox okay. if you hate it, just leave this blog. no one ask you to stay!

aku kehilangan arah
setiap perjalanan hidup ku telah hilang kerana mu

a band once - kembalilah

i just LOVE holiday ;)

2009-06-15T21:55:00.004+08:00

miss me? i felt like thousand years NOT updating my blog. but for real, its just ONE day only aha.this is the symptoms of addicted to blog! seriously, i love blogging so much because here we can express our feelings or sharing stories. and here where i kept everything except for my secret and some of my private life aha. so the holidays just started and i seems enjoy it so much. i forgot about everything that's a good things but when school re-open, it will come back. i wish there is someone right now could full-fill my wish. who's doesn't want a boyfriend? i do but on one wants me. so i just kept quiet and just happy for people happines and watch them laughing with their lover. love cannot be forced so, i just sit there and do nothing. just waiting for the LOVE to arrive. how long? i can't tell. only ALLAH knows when my LOVE will come. i just wait ;) but to be honest, waiting is so painful and we had to right.

wondering where i am? aha. im still in BRUNEI. aha. wont go anywhere since of this flu things! ehe. kinda scary huh? so these day, i just wondering around at BANDAR. relexing my mind and went to cousins house! on saturday, we went to RTB carnival at tutong. but at the afternoon. LOT's of people and its really hot there. saw familiar faces. but the most enjoying part is, hanging out with AMALINA and family! AMAL family is really nice that they wiling to accompany us played the games. thanks AMAL and FAMILY. its really enjoyable ;)

on sunday, went to my nini house in jerudong *not my really nini, my real nini siblings* its been a while we havent go there. miss them so much ehe. really i miss them ;) because my nini is so funny. then my mum and the rest of my family is hungry except me! im on diet okay. after filing out tummy ehe, went straight to AMIT house. i've been waiting for this. meeting my cousins si NURUL aha.sharing stories, play games *me sja tu* aha and of course, jln-jln bli makanan. see everytime, we visited them, they always buy us food. how nice they are. that's why i love them because they are so nice and love us ;)

as for today, my mum dream came true aha. before holiday, my mum keep telling us want to go to GIANT GIANT GIANT! aha, and today, we go there! nothing special there. i just hate their stuff and things! so lazy to write it here.

so, nah my update for today. no heartbroken, no unsatisfaction and no swearing! do i? aha. whatever!

To love someone is to wish him life;
to hate someone is to desire his death.
- Franklin P. Jones

L.O.V.E (L)

2009-06-13T17:27:00.006+08:00

let's start with school. my post will be long, so safe your breath if you want to read this post till the end. first, assembly, no idea what the hell is teachers talked about in the front. it was hot and my bag is heavy. and i kept complaining. its HOT wh! nothing about form six, just secondary. geo lesson was next, good news, no study, hanging out at L6-4 with english student.so english and geography students was there as we escaping from teacher. ;) do LOT's of stuff like tatoo-ing, joking around, bullying majidah and capturing picture and video *zulfa tu* okay just skip to cleaning campaingn which is WE are not actually had OUR cleaning campaingn! we are LAZY! instead we hanging out again, listen to music and again capturing picture using FARHANAH camera and AFIFI ROSLAN phone aha. hey boy dont delete our picture, we are HOT :P

afternoon

of course our usual spot canteen ;) with all my girlfriends plus one boy and this time plus CIKGU AZAMAN *our former class teacher* LOT's that we talked about and all of that was funny esp cikgu azaman. and crying session as ZULFA hugging me. i dont wanna cry but i thinks i can't hold it anymore.

to zulfa,

i love you so much that you just like my bestfriends. i wish you could stay but i couldn't stop you, its your dream. now i will learn NOT to look for you during geo class that i will keep smiling and pretend you will be absent and hoping tomorrow you will be there. but i know it will NOT gonna happen but i will keep doing it until i forget about you. everything about you! when your gone, means no laughter like before. that laughter and jokes keep me smiling each day when i down.and babe, forgive that i keep hurting you and doing something that might hurt your feelings. just take care there, and find new friends and dun worry there is no CURSE baybeh! you'll will be just fine there. nothing bad will happen, it just a jokes. i wont do that to you, eventhough its hurt to say goodbye but i still love you. just remember all of our memories, even small, little memories okay. see you when i see you. i even dont know if i ever see you again because i know you will be busy with your new life. just keep mention my name to your new friends okay ;) i want to be POPULAR too ehe

to faiz

of course i will be missing you so much esp during history lesson. i've been with you since we a kids until now. never thought that we could go to our separate ways. i always see you at school but when your gone, i have no idea how school will be looks like without you. i got nothing much to say, but im gonna miss you, miss listening music with you or talking with you. and faiz, technical will be LOT's of BEAUTIFUL GIRLS. just trust me, just by flicking you fingers, girls will come to you. and pleas take care yourself.

they brighten my day ;)

2009-06-11T17:53:00.008+08:00

ZULFA & FAIZ AZMI ;)

farewell for both of you. don't forget me here both of you aha, LOVE and both of you will be miss ;) but we can still hanging out right? :') sorry to zulfa, i can't even looked at you at the bus stand today, i saw fathin eyes was RED.. she was crying. then i looked at you, im afraid, i'll be crying too. and thanks to FAIZ AZMI, accompany me during afternoon. aha, dgni kh or lari dari org dating? aha i dont care. i was alone by myself at canteen since all of girlfriends went home early and fathin was having her lesson. then suddenly faiz came aha, FUH~~ nda jua seorg-org bh. at least ada ia ;)

Faiz. i called you MY MARKY! aha. does he just looked like mark westlife? but FAIZ is NOT gay.HE is normal babee. aha. know him since i was in primary school. but we know each other during sekolah ugama at Bear Hill ah.. i bet he already know that i HAD crush on him. kan faiz? aha. i told you already before, remember? aha. funny i just a kid at that time ;) then same school and same class from form one to three. then form 4, we were in different class but his class was just next to mine. hey wait, i called him my marky because he just looked like my idol. and HE is NOT my boyfriend aha.i just called him MY MARKY ;)

Zulfa, aha, my bisexual partner, know her since form one, same class during sekolah ugama, but dun remember clearly. aha. i close to her when i enter form six aha. my geo mate and my former PS mate. she HAS my secret . eh ada kh? aha. and baybeh darlingss, dun worry ur secret safe with me ;) msg me if you want to hanging out.
LOVE YA ;)

just enjoy the picture :)

he just crazy aha.

i looked ugly in this picture aha.

let me called him "MY MARKY" aha

my bisex partner aha. we ARE NOT GAY! aha trust me :)

No Stamina :(

2009-06-10T15:49:00.005+08:00

New Kids On The Block. seems OLD to you? for me NO!
they might be OLD now, NOT THAT OLD, mid-30s but THEY ROCKS!
ALL of their songs was the BEST!

GOSH! im completely totally TIRED!! since today is HOT, aha maybe.. but i felt HOT!!
hot can lead to tired-ness aha. *setahu aku tuu* but its true right? RIGHT!

Zulfikre still asking me WHY my face looked so STRESSING?! aha. is it obvious?! but im still laughing. and today was not that bad because i manage to laugh so hard during afternoon!
play with Fizah at the back of the class, *we seat at the back* during BM Lesson! aha. cali cali.
then i LOVE during lunch. its fun,funny and SAMSENG! we went to the class 5 min late. ;)
sekali sekala babe!

what else? ah, right since NEW MOON trailer is out, GIRLS go CRAZY! aha. yeah whatever!
i alredy read the books and that movie will be concentrated to JACOB BLACK! means EDWARD CULLEN will be missing in action aha. ;) lamaaaaaaaaaaaaa lagiiiiiii wyggggggggggnyaaa!
but im not crazy as THEM aha. not really. i only go crazy for ZACHARY QUINTO! aha.

Any girl can be glamorous.
All you have to do is stand still and look stupid.
Hedy Lamarr

when this bad day will end?

2009-06-09T15:04:00.006+08:00

sorry to those who was hurt by me this morning especially majidah sorry for scolded you everytime im in bad mood. forgive me :)

since last week, my bad and moody moody day isnt over yet. i dont think it will over till the end of this year. unless there is someone! then all the curses will be broken.

i thought no one care's about me, turns out there is! aha. zulfikre notice my mood today and asking me during geography lesson. aha thanks buddy ;)
and also azka, fizah and nisa! aha. since yesterday they kept asking me about my nick!
it was because my nick was (U) get it? its heartbroken. before this (L)
thank for asking guys.. im totally fine here ehee... never thought they still love me aha :P

for someone, im tired to think about this. you know what to do :)

i decide NOT to write "it" down. i just let it go, let it fly away and hope it never coming back.
what can i do? if everything is NOT for me. do i need to fight it? but i think im too tired fighting about it. because i know i will be lost in that battle. giving up is the bestoption. im sorry friends, im had to give up. until now there is NO "PRINCE CHARMING" come to save me from this mess. i rather lost my life than feel the heartbroken again :(

Blood, dripping, running,
From a broken heart.
Tears, streaming, falling,
I'm torn apart.

A smile, fading, gone,
I laugh no more.
A cry, building, escaping,
As you walk out the door.

A friendship, forgotten, lost,
As you drive away.
A love, broken, shattered,
As I'm left to stay.

Death, inviting, tempting,
I can live no more.
A fate, sealed, doomed,
As I lay on the floor.

Blood, dripping, running,
As I grab the knife.
Tears, streaming, falling,
As I take my life.

will you be mine in another life?

2009-06-08T14:51:00.009+08:00

My little Boyfriend. always be with me. LOYAL to me all the time ;)

"the moments i saw you, i will keep smiling. because your face make me smile ;)"

school as usual, okay. except with the debate things during english lesson.
sorry to those in english class for shouting and made an angry face to you esp boys.
we *girls* had to defend ourself. the statement was completely false and unacceptable.
yeah like farhanah said, NONSENSE!
i know boys always had to defend them self but this statement involving women!
what if you are women? you will know how we feel ;)

oh yeah,i planned to have renuion with 4A2/5A2
so here the plan.
jolibee tutong, can you came? ;)
date, not confirm yet. just let me know okay!

when i checked my facebook, there is someone birthday. so
happy birthday SYAFIQ! ;)
may god bless you!

last night, should i said that im flirting with strangers! aha. weird.
never done that but it was fun aha. eventhough i didn't knew him at all.
who are you? aha :p

my conversation with Azka. aha, he keep asking me to have a boyfriend.

this is what azka thinks of me ;)
you tell me!

p/s, feel free to visit my second blog! nothing special but there is something special aha
lului text ku atu. aha

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave boy
I will not stand in your way

Mariah Carey. Always be my baby!

I Miss Them ;)

2009-06-07T12:31:00.005+08:00

4A2/5A2 - SMSO ;)!
2007-2008

left to right,
Zulfikre, Haziq, Haffis Karim, Wahyunul Akmal, Khairul Jazli, Hafizzuddin
Faiz Bakri, Azka and Ak Haadi

picture - Mr.Kong!

left to right

Akmal, Muid Mr.Kong, Bibi, Me and Haadi

woah kinda miss them so much! 2 years with them ;) from 2007 - 2008.
miss messing around with them, gossiping with them, sharing problems or doing something
stupid with them! they change me completely. from a girl that always shy and not confident to herself to someone that always put a smile on her face ;) thanks my buddies. you teach me
that life is something precious that we must not miss a thing! you told me to enjoy this life,
forget all the problems just be happy all times. i never feel that excitement with my previous
mates! no offence my 1A to 3A mates! but thats what i feel! i felt like all of you just choosed someone who is cool to hangout with or just with a pretty face! im sorry but i still love all of you ;)

all of you brighten my world. accept me for i am. dont care about the looks or what i did
all of you still want to hangout with me although sometimes i hurt them. they still forgive me eventhough i done something stupid. remember mates, no matter what, i will be there for you and hope you will be there for me too. we've been through up and down in our friendship
we fight, we hated each other but later we become a friends that no one can break us again!
how far you are to me, i will always remember how all of you are important to me ;)

now, some are in form 6 and some still in form 5 and some had moved! its sad you know that we are not at the same class anymore! :( i wish i can be in form 5 forever but that impossible!
form six totally different. many new friends but none of them just like them! besides no one can
replace them. NO ONE!

p/s ; sorry for the broken english ;)

Back to the MARCH

2009-06-05T21:48:00.003+08:00

what happened in MARCH?! first day of school as form six students! yes we made it to form six
after months of struggling!
but why im talking about march anyway? it was because i just finished watching
our orientation video and picture!

at the end of the video, it make me ALMOST cried! with that songs, it really really sad!
who doesn't right? the happiness and the sadness was exist there!
learn a new things, got a new friends and learned how to be independent :)

lets recall my orientation day!
i regret sometimes when i thinks about mine! mine was full happiness too but at the same time, FRUSTRATION!
let me tell you!

well, im in squad F! not really excited though because F was the last Squad! same like my class was far away L6-7!
some familiar faces in my squad, lucky me i had my friends in it!
i had no idea who is my leader but when HE came to our squad aha, so funny!
im nervous! i was like "ia jadi leaderku, ehe" never expected!

wont tell you what happened next or what activity we had done! i bet you guys remember :)
i thinks the first day was so special to me! HE became my leader, can i said that HE dance with me during rehearsal! yeah yeah i consider it as "Dance with ME" aha! sorry that i wrote it here! and HE told me my shoes is "damage" aha! how can he see that? i hide it already
so embarrassing! but but, he didn't called my name, instead HE called me NAZURAH!
aha, he didn't even looked at me when he told me this!

i admitted that, i already lost interest with him few months before. but during orientation, that feelings came back! aha.

i thinks 3 days of orientation, i didn't know this things happen until one week after orientation is over! i was actually become as "CENTRE OF ATTENTION"
why?
because i confessing my feelings to HIM at my blog! i thought no one could figure it out, seems like i giving them so MUCH CLUES aha!
aha, i didnt know that at all! no wonder HE looks so different until the end of
orientation! i know its awkward aha. im sorry if im embarres you or they teasing you!
forgive me :)

since that, everything that i did seems wrong! like when i feel so sleepy or talking with a friends, he will mad at us! its obvious! aha! but i thinks it okay. that was HIS job!
but the one still fresh on my mine is when we got penalty because i fell from Rock!
HE was like totally HATE ME! the looks at his face shows it. he was mad!
and also he seems happy that i wasn't taking the "dancing part"

and at the end of orientation, i want to take a picture with him and our asistant leader as "memories"
but he refused! i asked him over and over again but still he dont want! aha! then i give up! i didnt take it to the heart! :)

then the end of orientation! i almost cried infront of Bibah! but i managed to hold it until home! i cried so hard not because of the end of orientation but because of HIM! i didnt stop crying till next morning!

yes there is feelings of regret for telling my feelings to him! if i keep it to myself
maybe today, we can still smile to each other! or say hi!

Not-so-well

2009-06-03T19:11:00.009+08:00

My Dream Car!

now im updating!
i usually updating my blog at the afternoon but today, i update it at night!
okay, my living room is so bloody COLD! aha. im freezing here!!
finally i watched gossip girl after i leave it for 2 months.
yeah yeah i know its already over in USA but don't worry i will catch up!
right now, only 3 episodes left before season finale!
then i have to wait for SEASON 3! aha. well kinda busy, that's why i missed it ;)

my morning is so refreshing, woke up early but arrived at school late!
oh.. there is NISA at bus stand!
so of course when we met, what else, we had our "talking session"!

when to the class, and people is so busy with the TECHNICAL SCHOOL THINGS!
"eh eh ada result technical dh" aha DUH~~ like im the one who apply it!
im NOT apply it okayy! not interested!

so to those who was accepted, CONGRATZ!
to those who don't, well.. FORM SIX is much better!!

i already told majidah NOT to tell me whether ZULFA get in or not!
BUT BUT, SHE TOLD ME! urgh!!!!!
my mood is so totally changing. i don't talk with anyone.
i hate it when ZULFA get in!
i know i know, im supposed to be happy but.... I NEED HER!! COMPLETELY
i never imagine, me siting at geography class and her seat is empty!
NO!! it's insane!!

but i know, it was HER life,
HER decision
and i can't forced HER to stay!
im not HER mother. im just HER friends!!
so i let her make her decision!!

Birthday

2009-06-02T15:06:00.009+08:00

TO MY LOVELY SWEETHEART/MY HOT BEST FRIEND!

MY SUPER HOT SYLAR, ZACHARY QUINTO

AND MY GEOGRAPHY MATE, EMMELINE GIMBAR!

happy bithday ALL! ;)

enough of birthday's

school today is SO HOT!!
really really HOT!
then i asked AHMAD.

Me: panas eh, sama ada aku "HOT" or weather ane yg HOT!
Ahmad : Ko yg "HOT"

aha. I'M HOT!!

but today, was completely insane day! no reason for that but it's insane!
whatever!!

i woke up late, everything was a mess!
then the weather is HOT and im sweat a LOT's and my uniform is WET!
eeeeeewwwwwwwww~ suck!
i had a headache during afternoon lesson
and my heart kept beating so fast indicate that i'm NERVOUS.
NERVOUS because.....! no idea.

do i have to wait for like THOUSANDS YEARS for him to make a move?!
so-not-gentlemen!!
what if there is someone say "i love you" before you?!
you'll the one who will regret!
should you blame him or yourself?
im not forcing you but it's so bored you know watching you there
and looked at me!
at least, SAY SOMETHING!
Let me know you are "THAT GUY"
what if i guess wrong person?
it's so embarrasing!

i hate keep guessing!

im so totally heatbroken NOW!
i thought there is a HOPE!
but it was GONE!

meaning... i can't have you anymore!!
owwwww~ it's hurt baybeh! wish there is a fairy that can help
me NOW!
that can make me vanish from this world and never come back!

If you love somebody, let them go.
If they return, they were always yours.
If they don't, they never were.

Mall ;)

2009-06-01T20:05:00.005+08:00

as i said before i went to the mall with my twins and my sis&bro in law!
what we do? of course, i watching MOVIE!
NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2!
the movie started 3.30, and we had to pick our tickets at 3.00
but we arrived there in 2.30!

so just we just wander around at the mall!
guess who i met? FAIZ BAKRI and the geng! aha.
i met MY SENIOR's aha. no need to mention who since its was A LOTS!
and also Qamra and the geng! ehe.
my cousins, FUAD and Family!
i think i saw, FAEQ! maybe! wait, yeah it was him aha!

went inside! aha.
the movie was so totally hilarious! i kept laughing while watching the movie!
i like the PHARAOH and CUPID part! aha.
and and, to HISTORY students, there is NAPOLEON in that movie aha.!
funny you know!

but i just wonder that, why some people said this is movie is so boring?!
aha, maybe this people doesn't have feeling or they don't like this kind of movie!
okay enough about this movie! you just watch it by yourself ;)
i give 9.99 out of 10!

after the movie is over, looked for fizah birthday present and eat! im hungry!

i always think that, "will i have a chance to be with you?!"
have you ever think about me?
have you ever love me?!

Laugh!

2009-05-28T15:18:00.004+08:00

Zulfa my darlings and ME!
Geography Lesson!
taken by Majidah

today is just ordinary day.
nothing special nothing magical!
but after 2 days having "sadness day"
im happy back.

today was really enjoyable esp during geography
hanging out with the girlss.
zuriani, zulfa, majidah and atikah.
aha. "eh tolak bala"
cali cali. pyh kan describe but cali wh!

then lunch. left me, normah and fathin
fizah went home early.
then at 1 o clock, moved to another table.
not long after that, normah left me!!
im alone. not really.
semeja ku tdi sama org dating. sorry so much mengacau
ehe. really and deeply.
lucky kamu, i was listening to music
and i dont heard anything.

not only that, senior MPP was there! i think MOST of them
just nearby.
malu saya eh. tunduk tunduk gnya ku!
oh my.
so i read athies, listen to music! fuh~ i made it
aha. apakan?!
well, i was alone until syariah students came! selamat.

home!

Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion.
I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward.
Kurt Vonnegut

oh its 2 o clock !

2009-05-27T14:32:00.008+08:00

my handmade watch! just using pen! it show 2 o clock!

aha. i thought because = cos *sir teck yg buat cos*
is CO2 *carbon dioxide* aha. khayal!

i kept editing this post over and over again!
something is not right here
like i missing something!
okay now i did it again.
geez!

okay let start again
today is wednesday.
nothing special today.
morning, gossiping and chit chatting with
my hot baybeh, NISA!
thanks babe

then, relex relex relex!
break time
okay there is bunch of boys at L6-1
we have no choice, lintas sja
but when we passing by, they laughing
like there is something wrong with us. aha
"mengumpat kami ah"
well, i dont care.
maybe they talked about other thing ;)

there is no teacher during geo lesson!
yeah!
so we tatto-ing and chit chat!

then after lunch - Bahasa Melayu
since keboringan, aha.
again me tatto-ing my hands
yup that watch i made during Bahasa Melayu lesson!

then - home!

the end.

It's true that we don't know what we've got
until we lose it,
but it's also true that we don't know
what we've been missing until it arrives.